His Redemption (MxM)

Chapter 76

Luke

Dinner want by faster than I expected, it ended quicker than I needed to be at Adriano's place, I called him and he said he was at a meeting, but he would be home in less than thirty minutes, so I still had extra thirty minutes to spend at home.

I decided to help mom and Alicia do the dishes, Alicia was already at the sink, washing them, so I was helping her rinse and dry.
We were doing it in silence until I remembered how my mom talked about Adriano, even before I confirmed that we were seeing each other, she was so sure about it, that I doubt if she didn't get a tip off from someone, someone I know all too well.

Alicia handed me a plate and I rinsed it and started drying it off with the small towel in my hand
"Did you tell mom about Adriano"? I asked, and she paused, and looked at me, I gave her a quick glance and the guilty look in her eyes made me realize that she did in fact tell mom about him, I clenched my jaw
"Alicia...." I started but she cut me off

"She was being very persuasive, and besides I didn't see any harm in telling her that you had something going on with him" she rushed out, I sighed out heavily.

"Alicia, you know you can't go telling her everything that happens in my life, especially when it comes to Adriano" I muttered out.

"And why's that"? She asked, and I looked at her, giving her a pointed look

"You know why" I whispered out, she frowned and gave me that look that I don't like, that pitiful look, I looked away from her "it's nothing serious Alicia, I don't want to give mom the wrong idea, you know how she's going to get if I give her the idea that this... Whatever is going on between Adriano and I is something serious" I muttered out

"You still don't know if you like him" she stated and I shook my head

"No, it's not that, I just.... " I paused and sighed out heavily

"You don't want to give in and accept the fact that he makes you happy, more than you like to admit" she stated again, and when I looked at her, I couldn't help the nagging feeling in my heart that she was right, I mean he doesn't give me butterflies, I'm not in love with him, but there's something about Adriano that just makes me feel at ease, sometimes I forget that I have problems, I almost, almost want to forget that after Hewitt, I promised I wouldn't jump into another relationship so soon.

And deep down I don't want to admit the fact that someone else is making me feel that way, because I'm scared, not because I feel it's going to end up like what happened with Hewitt, I'm scared because I feel like I'm betraying Hewitt, and I know I'm not, he made it clear that what we had ended the moment I started falling for him.

"You know at some point in your life, you deserve to be happy" she muttered out, I bit my lips and looked away from her, of course I know I deserve to be happy, after all the shitty things I've been through, I at least deserve a little bit of happiness, but why do I feel like being happy with Adriano, means I'm betraying Hewitt?

"I know you don't like talking about this, but you have to move on from Hewitt" she whispered out softly "I don't know what happened between the both of you, or the extent to which you feel for him, but Adriano is a nice guy, and I can tell he cares about you so much, you deserve the best, and Adriano is that person for you, Luke..." She called, pulling my hands together in her wet ones, I stared at her, seeing the concern in her eyes for me, I get what she's saying, and I do want to move on from Hewitt, I just don't know how to.

I like Adriano, I really do, but when you love someone, it's different from any other feeling in this world.
Right now, Adriano will always come second to Hewitt, which sounds fucking wrong, but I can't help who my heart always yearns for.
"It's time for you to move on from Hewitt, it's not easy I know, but you just have to, and no other better choice than Adriano" she whispered.