fearless

Chapter 56: I Don't Want to, Period

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Hotel California- The Eagles

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"Ty," I groan. His hands grip my sides tightly as I stir the soup on the stove. "No sex." I chastise.

A lion's roar of a groan exits his mouth as he removes his hands from my sides. "Forget about the blood. I'm not scared of the blood." He says simply.

"Oh really?" I ask, "even when your dick is covered in it?" He stares at me blankly, his ears glowing red. His eyes dart back and forth as I stare him down. I turn back to my spot at the stove, continuing to stir.

I hear echoing footsteps, followed by a small whimper. "Hannah," Ty states in an echoed voice, from upstairs. I'm really just a little fed up with his bellyaching and whining about my period and how "Hannah gets your boobs more than me."

Like, I'm sorry that she needs the milk to stay alive and healthy. I might just feed our next child formula- just so I don't have to hear his whining.

My stirring has picked up the pace with my anger, so I slow it down. I remove the spoon from the stewpot, replacing the lid. I walk out to sit on the couch, and pick up the television remote.

I feel a stabbing pain in my core, knowing its the cramps. They're endless. Mood swings don't really phase me- they're not really something that I have. But the cramps, oh lord the cramps, they're the worst.

I channel surf through the Erudite and Candor channels, and onto the old movie channels. There's nothing really good on, so I just decide to turn off the television and go to the bathroom. I just want a quiet place.

I stalk up the stairs, feeling a gush of blood emptying itself from my body every now and then. "Shit." I mumble. I step in the bathroom, shutting the door. I lock it, and sit down on the toilet.

"F this." I whisper as I change to a tampon. I hold my head in my hands, sighing. There's a leader meeting in Candor that I have to go to tomorrow. Hopefully this ends today. It's been six days- long enough.

"Honey?" I hear Ty say from the other side of the door, amid a cry from Hannah. "I think Hannah's hungry," he says.

Hannah's cries quickly escalate to become screams as she becomes hungrier. I sigh. "I'll be out in a minute!" I tell him.

I quickly finish my duties, washing my hands afterward- keeping it clean, man.

I exit the bathroom, crossing into Hannah's room. Ty coaxes her as she screams, Handing her the elephant. "I'm here." I say. Hannah's cries dial themselves down at the sound of my voice.

I lift Hannah up underneath her armpits, and carry her to the rocking chair with me. I lift up my shirt, and wait for Hannah to latch on. She does quickly, and then I pull my shirt back down, not wanting to hear Ty's groans and bellyaching.

I feel a pulling sensation as Hannah nurses, and I yelp. Hannah fists at my skin, making me wince. Ty looks at me confusedly. "What's wrong, Maddie?" He asks.

I look up at him. "It hurts... a little." He nods. "I guess it's normal, I don't really know. We'll find out soon. The appointment is next week." He says hopefully.