fearless

Chapter 111: His Wish, Her Wish.

My Blood- Ellie Goulding
Hotel Ceiling- Rixton
Everything- Lifehouse
You & I- Michael Bublé
Ty

I stand in the bedroom, staring out of the window at the cityscape. I feel dainty fingertips touch my stomach and I turn to face Maddie. She grins at me before turning away from me and swaying her hips as she walks out into the hallway.

What?

I follow her downstairs, and see her run into the arms of another man. My heart shatters, I close my eyes. I reopen my eyes and see that Maddie is kissing me. Well, my clone, my doppelgänger.

She pulls away from him as he caresses her cheek, and his eyes look shadowed, dark. His face looks like he hasn't shaved in days, stubble covering his pale cheeks. Maddie hugs him, and I want to scream out that she's not actually hugging me, but I can't.

I can't open my mouth.

Hannah comes walking out of her nursery, then tugs on my clone's pant leg. He grins at Hannah before he picks her up and tosses her into the air. I try to run forward and save Hannah, knowing that if I don't catch her, she'll fall to her death.

Clone Ty is being too careless.

The only problem is that when I try to run, I can't move. My legs are frozen in place. I can't save Hannah. I realize as I try to throw myself in Clone Ty's direction that I'm in an Abnegation based simulation. It's a fear simulation. I'm afraid of not being able to save Hannah.

I have to be selfless enough to save her, I have to be willing to give myself up to save her.

This is only happening inside my head. I can free myself from the captivity of the simulation. I can. I can break free. I close my eyes and think of breaking free from the force that is making me stand still.

I can feel my body begin to shake, I'm doing it. I'm resisting the serum, the simulation. I can do this. I smile internally as I continue to send thoughts of freedom through my mind.

Soon enough, I can move my legs and my arms.

I rush forward just as Clone Ty throws Hannah into the air once more, to Maddie's delight. She giggles as she jumps up and down, clapping. Hannah screams as she flies through the air, thrashing her arms and legs around, trying to stay in the air and out of harm's way.

I fall into Clone Ty, knocking us both to the ground, catching the screaming Hannah and sending relief through my body.

I saved her.

Hannah somehow wraps her arms around my neck, hugging me as the two of us lay on top of the other Ty. I kiss her forehead and tell her to walk to her mother, who gapes at the two of us. She looks at me and it's as if fire is blazing from her ears.

"Jordan?" She asks as she looks into my eyes, and I feel my heartbeat quicken.

Why the hell does she think I'm Jordan?

"Why are you here, Jordan?" She asks me, and I stand up, shaking my head as I look her directly in the eyes.

"No," I say quietly, my voice not even above a whisper. "No. Maddie, No." I feel like I'm shattering. I'm becoming the one person who has ruined my life. I'm becoming Jordan. "Maddie, It's me. It's Ty." I say, taking her hand in mine. She pulls it away, looking at me in utter disgust.