fearless

Bonus: Suffering [oneshot]

False Alarm- Matoma
Maddie

I feel pain shoot through my stomach, and I bite my lip. It's normal, my mind tells me. I shift around uncomfortably in my control room chair, my eyebrows furrowing as I stare into my computer screen. My father sits down the row from me, and I grit my teeth as I feel my stomach twist another time.

Let's go back. This time, about seven and a half months ago, my boyfriend Ty and I were happy. We were perfectly happy living the Dauntless lifestyle together. We were just like every other couple. We kissed in public, we stayed at each other's houses all the time, and we had sex on a regular basis.

That all changed after one night, when we were both a little bit drunk. I don't really remember it, in all honesty. All I remember was going back to my place and waking up the next morning hungover and sick with him laying beside me, passed out. That's how I got to where I am now, pregnant at 19, almost 20, and not even ready to be a mother. To be honest, I don't even have the desire to be a mother. I just want it to be Ty and I.

Ty and I are still together, reluctantly. We're kind of off and on right now. He hasn't proposed to me yet, which I find kind of weird, especially since we've been together for nearly four years. Then again, This pregnancy has taken a toll on the both of us, both mentally and emotionally, and for me, physically as well.

My parents are still pretty mad at me, especially considering the fact that I didn't even tell them. They just figured it out on their own.

The stomach pains come back again, and I look in between the computer screens, towards Gus's desk. He sits with his back turned towards me, his elbow resting on his desk, his head in his hand. I bite my lip, and see my father across the row, his headphones on, staring at his glowing screen. I look at my computer screen, on the Pit footage, and my stomach twists into knots. I feel like I'm going to throw up, so I log out of my computer, then stand and pull my jacket on, then walk over to Gus.

"Hey, do you think I can leave? I feel really sick, I think I'm gonna have to go to the infirmary." I say to him, feeling the sickness again, and he nods as his eyes travel from my stomach to my eyes. I nod at him, then turn and look back at my father one last time before I walk out the door, towards the infirmary.

I make my way out into the lighter part of Dauntless, and I look around. A message is appearing on the screens. I see Ty's face appear, and I smile, even though my stomach feels like it's killing me from the inside out.

"Due to threats from the factionless, Jeanine Matthews has issued a proclamation," He says, his voice filled with as much emotion as he's allowed to have. "Every citizen from every faction must stay in their compound until further notice. If you are seen leaving, there will be punishments. Thank you." He ends his speech, and it begins again, only at a softer volume. My hands are gripping onto the wall, and it's only now that I see my father standing beside me.

"What are you doing?" He asks me.

"What does it look like I'm doing?" I retort, the pains in my stomach worse now than ever before, "I'm going to the infirmary!" I tell him. My fingers grip onto the rocky walls so hard that I feel like they're bleeding. "Please," I whisper, tears appearing in my eyes as my stomach cramps and I slide down to the ground, my legs weakening, "Help me."

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Maddie walks into the control room ten minutes late, wearing a thick jacket to try to cover up her baby bump. I'm still pretty pissed about it, to be honest. It's not even just the fact that she's pregnant. It's the fact that it's his baby, that she got pregnant from drunken sex that angers me. I found out about two months ago, but I only found out because I could tell. I really wonder how she thought she could hide it from me when we work together.