JUST LIKE A BROKEN DOLL (BUT I STILL LOVE YOU)

JLABD 16

The nauseousness started first. It was a different kind of nauseousness from the one he's used to for the past 23 weeks. He doesn't feel like throwing up, just feeling like something's wrong in his stomach. The thought terrified him, especially because the baby's been so quiet ever since it began. He appreciated the kind behaviour but he's desperate to feel his baby kicking and throwing tantrums from inside his stomach again. He even coaxed and begged for the baby to kick him now but the baby remained sulking. How long do you want to sulk baby-ah? It's not like Daddy didn't try. But you know it's hard for Daddy to forget... And your Appa's still avoiding me too.

Jaejoong sighed. He can't even lie to himself, what's he doing trying to lie to his baby? Obviously, Yunho's not in the wrong. The man had recently started working full time in his main branch right after graduation. Even if he wanted, he simply had not much time to spare. Not that he should. After all, Jaejoong still pretended not to want Yunho's presence near him. It's stupid but Jaejoong can't help himself. Although he missed him, he doesn't know how to stop acting like he can't stand Yunho's company.

By now, Jaejoong regretted saying all those things a month ago. If he'd just kept his mouth shut, maybe Yunho would still find the time and way to pester him despite his busy schedule. Of course he would. Jejoong also regretted wishing for easy pregnancy a few months back. He's terribly scared; not at all used to this easiness.

And then the headache started. The headache was even worst than the nauseousness. It felt like somebody was pounding his head, inside his head, yelling and screaming, pushing and pulling. Everything. All inside his head. And then his whole body. Not just the feet and the back. His whole body ached. He felt like dying. But it can't be... I did nothing but rest and I even eat everything Yunhoyah prepared.

Sadly, Jaejoong only regretted not seeing Yunho about it, not telling anything to him when he felt his sight go black that night, his whole body aching and heavy and to his horror he realized he's gonna fall flat on the tiled floor because he can't move his hand to grab hold of anything. Yunhoyah... He didn't even feel the pain then, already unconscious before his body even met the hard cold floor.

Yes, Jaejoong regretted everything a little too late.