JUST LIKE A BROKEN DOLL (BUT I STILL LOVE YOU)

BISLY 36

His eyes twitched, feeling uncomfortable despite being asleep. Distantly, he could hear a voice calling for him but he couldn't really think of anyone and why or how yet, still so tired and in need of more rest. It was only when his body began to shake that he's slowly gaining consciousness. Frowning and yawning a long one, he tried to clear his mind and open his eyes.

"Yunhoyah. Hiks... Hiks... Yunhoyah. Wake up."

The voice clearly belonged to his Jaejoong and Yunho was startled awake in no time. "J! Oh god, J, Love, why are you crying?!" Fully panicked, he cupped the man's face and wiped the man's tears. "What's wrong?! What hurt, J, tell me?"

"Yunhoyah." Jaejoong hiccupped pathetically, big fat tears continuously streaming down his face as he stared sadly up at Yunho despite Yunho's best attempt at wiping them. "I want to pee."

"Oh, Love, is that it?" Yunho couldn't mask his relief. He thought Jaejoong was in some sort of pain.

"I cannot move my legs."

Yunho's eyes widened at the admission. Now, complaints of numbness and aching limbs are no longer out of ordinary but never before had it happened during the wee hours that it even made Jaejoong cry. "Oh, J, are they cramped again? Shhh Love, I'll help you massage your legs okay."

"But I want to pee."
 
Yunho still doesn't quite understand him. Maybe he should call for help. That's the reason they moved to this small mansion along with Mrs Go and Leo anyway. He can't handle everything alone especially when there are works that cannot be brought home no matter what.

The mansion's not only a lot closer to the hospital and his office building but it's also bigger and Yunho had purchased the mansion because the deal included the original employees; three maids and one gardener. He wanted Jaejoong to have the space he needed, good company and the right atmosphere. "Let me call-"
 
"No! Yunhoyah, just- Just carry me to the toilet.... Please?"

Pausing just for a while, Yunho nodded. However, as soon as his hand landed on Jaejoong's skin, the man cringed.

"That hurt?" Yunho asked, confused.

Jaejoong bit his lips, wincing. "Yes... That's why- Hurry up... I can't-" Jaejoong stopped all too suddenly and soon it was obvious the reason why. After all, the sound and stench of urine will definitely be loud and strong in the silence of the night. Surprised, Yunho could only blink and keep staring at Jaejoong's face.

In a matter of seconds, Jaejoong started sobbing all over again and this time he's no longer looking at Yunho.

Oh, Love... I'm so sorry. "J..."

"Yunhoyah, I- I can't hold it in... I- I tried to wake you up but you wouldn't wake up and I- I'm so sorry, Yunhoyah. But my legs- My legs cramped and I can't feel them at all. It just hurts... It hurts so bad. And I can't hold on any longer. I tried! I thought-" Jaejoong suddenly started coughing and wheezing, unable to finish his rambling.

"Shhh... Calm down J, calm down. Hush, hush, it's okay Love. It's okay, you hear me?"

"But I- But I-"

Yunho understood. He could feel the shame and regret and guilt radiating from Jaejoong as if they're his own. "No but." Yunho smiled, kissing Jaejoong's eyes despite his own bleeding heart. Hang on, J... This is just the beginning... Be strong, Love. For me and for our baby. "Stop crying, okay? Hmm. Can you move your body a little, J?"

Jaejoong solemnly shook his head.

"It's okay. Just bear this a little, okay?" Still smiling, Yunho carefully moved his beloved to his side of the bed. He kissed the man's forehead, promising him a quick return and stepped towards the bathroom.

"Yunhoyah?"

Yunho tried to keep his tears in as he turned his head just slightly. "I'm just going to the bathroom. We need to quickly clean your body first and then we'll massage your legs, okay?"

"But-"

"Hey, I let you take care of our baby. Shouldn't you let me take care of you? Hmm?"

"I- O- Okay."

"That's my good Jaejoong."

"The bed?" Jaejoong fearfully asked, referring to the soiled sheet.

"I'll ask someone to clean it up tomorrow morning, okay?"

Jaejoong looked forlorn and Yunho sighed. He's still not used to them... "Okay, okay. We'll clean it ourselves... You teach me and I'll do the hard work."

Jaejoong nodded, lips quirking a small smile at the exasperated tone Yunho purposefully used.

At least now you're smiling... Keep smiling, Love. Your happiness is the only thing that matter. Always...