JUST LIKE A BROKEN DOLL (BUT I STILL LOVE YOU)

BISLY 41

"What's wrong?!" Yunho couldn't even try to contain his fear, feeling like his entire world's slipping away from his grasp. He's only seconds away from breaking down himself. "What happened?! Where's Doctor Lee?!" He's practically shouting and pushing the male nurse who happened to pass by and now preventing him from entering the ICU. Funny. It's as if the whole universe conspired against him and he's now torn between trying to find answers and wanting to see his beloved. Jaejoong was fine last night... He didn't show any changes... So why? Why this? Why now? Why now when Yunho's finally lulled to feel a sense of security? I thought everything will be okay now... He really thought the pain and suffering will be over. So forgive him if Yunho doesn't give a damn about making scene right now. Who'll on earth care about formality when you suddenly found that you might lose everything at any moment? The phone call an hour ago almost killed him. He couldn't even get a grip of himself to drive the car, thus having to wait for Leo to come and drive him back to the hospital. 

"Mr Jung!"

To Yunho's annoyance, Leo actually helped the male nurse to restrain him. Who knew the timid and weak looking driver could actually be that strong?

What Yunho failed to realize is that he's too panicked. That's the reason he's so easily subdued by the two men. 

"Let go of me! I want to see him!"

"Mr! Please calm yourself! There's nothing you can do even if you get in! The doctors are trying their best to save your family, I'm sure! All you can do right now is pray and hope for the best!"

The young male nurse sounded cross and a little cruel but after being pushed and punched, nobody can blame him for losing his cool.

Yunho, however, gave the man no response. Leo and the nurse looked at each other anxiously when Yunho started chuckling out of the blue.

Still laughing, he looked up to stare at the operating room. "You're right..." He laughed louder, the sound he's making ugly and heartbreaking as tears streamed down his face. His laughter stuttered and turned into sobs. To any looking eyes, he looked lost and broken. Pitiful. "Hahaha what can I do for him? Nothing... There's nothing I can do... I can't do anything for him..." The man continued to laugh and sob pathetically.

"You can't leave me." Yunho suddenly said, startling the two men when he slumped to the floor like he havo ne strength left in his legs. Yet he's uncaring of how weak he look right then. "I'll hate you if you leave me, J. You know what I'll do after that."

"Mr Jung?" Leo tentatively placed a hand on the man's shoulder, obviously worried for his employer's sanity. Mr Jung's strong, yes, but even the strongest of men would crack under pressure and Yunho had been facing too much already. The fact that the man seemed to love Mr Kim too deeply to be considered normal made him even more nervous. Had anything happened to Mr Kim today, Mr Jung would definitely lose it. He had no doubt about that.

"He's supposed to get the baby out today..." Yunho started mumbling to himself. His eyes are vacant and hauntingly unseeing as tears trickled down his cheeks endlessly. It's a terrifying sight to look at because he's actually smiling. "The surgery's scheduled at 14.30... That's just in 8 hours... Ah, I know it, my J's impatient... Haha ha he wants the baby out faster so he can see me again... Or else, why would his condition drop like this... That must be it... He misses me too... Ha ha why am I crying... So embarrassing... This is nothing for him... He's been fine all this time... My J's so strong... Haha hah why am I still crying... Stupid... stupid... It's not that he's leaving me... He promised to die after me... He promised... I trust him... He'll never break his promise... It's J... My sweet lovely Jaejoong... My Love won't leave me like this... He loves me so much... My J loves me so much... He loves me... He loves me... You love me, right J... Ha ha I know it... You love me... You love me so much..."