JUST LIKE A BROKEN DOLL (BUT I STILL LOVE YOU)

BISLY 28

Yunho's not sure exactly how things escalated to this but it doesn't bother him anymore the moment his Jaejoong actually responded to the kiss albeit a little too slow for his liking. A sure sign of inexperience but that's okay. Yunho can give him experience. He sighed happily against the other's moist lips, smiling as he gently nip at the succulent upper lip before pulling it into his mouth to suck. Jaejoong whimpered and damn him, Yunho hardened in response. He kissed the pliant man harder and started feeling him all over.

It's not enough.

Although they still share the same bed and he'd been openly affectionate with Jaejoong all this time, he'd never done anything this intimate. It's not like he doesn't want to but rather, he's worried if it's too much and too soon. He just doesn't want to force Jaejoong again. He doesn't want to scare him away.

Yet today... Today he'd taken that leap of faith and shockingly was rewarded generously.

Too generously in fact.

Panting against the other's neck, Yunho chuckled deliriously as he tried to get back in control. This is bad. God help me... I want him... God I want him so bad. Fuck fuck fuck get a grip!

"Yunhoyah?"

Jaejoong sounded unsure and a little scared but right now, the man looked downright delectable.

"Is it okay?" Yunho asked, his voice turning rougher and huskier due to the growing lust.

"Wha...t?" Jaejoong more or less squeaked his response but for some reason, it caused Yunho to throb with pleasure. Damnit.

"Kiss." He managed to clarify despite his arousal, already wanting to possess the man in his arms. "Kissing you like this... Is it okay?"

In an instant, Jaejoong reddened from his neck up to his ears. He bit his lips - causing Yunho to let out a desperate groan - and nodded.

"Stop." Yunho somehow managed to rasp out, eyes literally begging for mercy. "Don't look so good. You make me want to take you."

Like magic, Jaejoong blushed darker and practically melted in his arms. Fearing and concerned he'll fall - Jaejoong had only completed his therapy a week ago and they'd already travelled far to visit the orphanage today - Yunho moved to hold him so that Jaejoong's fully resting against him.

"Oh god."

Their position made him even more horny. He's not sure he'll survive after all.

"... Is something wrong, Yunhoyah?"

"No. God, no. We were just talking about my donation..." He murmured feeling extremely hopeless. "How did it get to this?"

Jaejoong literally stiffened in his hold. "... Is this bad?"

Yunho nosed the other affectionately, honestly not understanding the question at all. "What?"

"This." Jaejoong whispered unsurely. "You never kiss... touch me... like that before. Is it bad? With me?"

Yunho laughed in disbelief. He should've known. Only his Jaejoong would think like that. "Love, you have no idea how much I want you..." He confessed, tightening his grip just in case Jaejoong would bolt. Not that he think he would. But. Just in case it's too much, too soon, after all. "But after... After what I did, I was scared. I don't want to make you remember our first time. I don't want to hurt you. Even though it's hard, I hold back... Not because I don't want you but because I don't know if I can live if I hurt you for the second time."

Jaejoong stayed silent and he can be understanding if the man's not ready. Yunho himself thought he wasn't ready too right until a few seconds ago. "J?" Disconcerted with his lover's sudden quietness, he placed a kiss on top of Jaejoong's head and slightly swayed him. "Hey, Love, it doesn't matter. I love you, you know that right? I can wait forever for you."

"Yunhoyah... The kids... There's children here."

"Huh?"

Jaejoong looked up, eyes glazed with need and want but his shyness was obvious and so adorable that it hurt. Yunho just wanted to kiss it all away. Hear him scream and moan in abandon. Make him feel so loved he'll never be shy to ask for more. Ever.

"You're going to be death of me some day." Yunho chuckled throatily as his hardness twitched, no doubt agreeing.

Jaejoong shook his head. "If it's you, it's okay. It's always okay... But-"

Yunho couldn't bring himself to care anymore. Not when Jaejoong moved and now he could feel Jaejoong's erection pressing against his hips oh so clearly. He didn't realize the man was also aroused.

Groaning, Yunho pulled the wide-eyed man towards their bed. Courtesy of the Headmistress.

"But they're asleep."

He carefully lowered the man onto the bed and crawled over him, desperate to touch and to feel. To be one with Jaejoong for real. To erase his cruel touches and replace them with tender loving.

"I love you."

Jaejoong smiled and Yunho's lost.