JUST LIKE A BROKEN DOLL (BUT I STILL LOVE YOU)

JLABD 18

"No." Jaejoong's voice was soft; broken, yet everyone can hear the pained resolution it carried. "I refused. You can't force me."

Due to the fact that this is the first time Jaejoong actually responded with words after he woke up without any more drop in his health condition, the doctor thought they finally had the break they're waiting for. "Mr Kim you don't underst-"

"No you don't understand!" Jaejoong glared at the doctor as he punctuated each words heatedly. If his glare and tone were't effective enough, his next sentences does the deed. "I won't give up on my baby! You can't make me! If you did it without my consent, I swear I'll kill myself in this very hospital if I survived." Even Yunho glanced at him worriedly after the words were spoken but there was nothing in Jaejoong's eyes anymore. Emptiness. That's all for the past two days ever since they told him.

"Jae ple-"

Jaejoong shook his head pleadingly, cutting Yunho's sentence. "No... Yunhoyah... It's our baby. Ours..." Jaejoong spoke with a breaking voice. If only he realized it's the first time he ever acknowledged the baby as theirs in front of his Yunho. "You believe me, right? Our baby is here... Baby's still here, Yunhoyah." And if only he realized it's the first time he called Yunho, Yunhoyah, like he always did before Yunho chased him out with those cutting insults a few months ago.

Strange how one tragedy could lead him to forgive and forget another tragedy.

Eyes quickly filled with remorse and hurt, Yunho looked away. "Jae..."

Jaejoong whimpered, eyes moist. "Baby's not dead Yunhoyah. How many times should I tell you that? Our baby's just... Our baby's just sulking with me. Okay? Our baby wants his Daddy to talk to his Appa that's all." Jaejoong placed his trembling right hand on top of his stomach. He ignored the feeling of dread creeping inside him at the stillness of everything. Baby's still here... still here.

Jaejoong doesn't even realized how many times he repeated the chant in his head since he woke up.

"I'll forget everything that happened. I'll forgive everything Yunhoyah. So our baby will not be mad anymore... Okay?" He tried to smile.

From the corner of his eyes, he saw Yunho harshly wiped his eyes with his knuckles.

Are you crying? No... Why are you crying too Yunhoyah? Baby's here. Our baby's still here. Don't be sad please. Don't hate me. Our baby's not going anywhere Yunhoyah...

The doctor approached Yunho and though he lowered his voice, Jaejoong can still hear their conversation clearly.

"Mr Jung, I advise you to talk him into going for the operation to remove the remains as soon as possible. His condition is better now and we can operate him without risking his life but we have to hurry. The longer we delay this, the higher the risk. Mr Kim can die."

But what about our baby? Jaejoong intentionally shut down after that question popped in his mind. He doesn't want to hear anything they want to say. Lies... They're all lies! Everyone's just lying to him. Yes.

His baby's still here.

His only family is still alive inside him.

His only connection to Yunhoyah is still alive inside him.

Jaejoong refused to believe his depression and stress killed his baby. There's no way his baby would leave him just like that. Right? Everyone can leave him but not his baby.

Not their baby...

And surely not Yunhoyah's...