It's All So Beautiful *Roger Taylor Fanfic*

Yes, You're Breaking My Heart Again

January 1st 1975

It had been an icredible few months for Queen. They had major success with their album "Sheer Heart Attack." I was incredibly proud of Roger and I supported him all the way. He was much more lively, happy and he made the days better. He was spending a lot of time in the studio, writing more songs and recording. He was away from home a lot and I had to take care of the kids alone, but it was alright. I liked spending time with them.

Regardless of Roger or the kids, I was feeling down in the dumps quite a lot. The doctor said post natal depression was common but I didn't know if it was even because of the babies. I felt there was something in my life, something I needed to fulfil to really make me happy. What that was though, was unclear.

My life had been hectic in the past few months. People were bombarding us with photos ever since Roger got some recognition. He always made sure we were safe though, especially the twins. They were 9 months old at this stage. They smiled a lot and their hair was a lot longer. Aidans hair was exceptionally longer. It was blonde and fine. Elly Mae's hair was still dark brown. They both still had blue eyes. I wondered if that would change as they got older.

Freddie, enjoyed spending time with them. He was always calling around, even when Roger wasn't there to talk to them and play with them. I always made sure I was caught up with what was happening in Freddies life because there was a lot. He was telling me one day how he wasnt sure if he loved Mary anymore. I was completely shocked when he said that but a few days after he told me he was just in a "mood" and that I shouldn't take any notice of what he said. I was very concerned. Mary was very sensetive and for Freddie to break up with her, that would destroy her.

Even though I was happy for Roger and Queen, a little while later it started to really bug me how Roger was rarely home. He would leave the house at 9:00 am and return after midnight. Every night. He wasn't spending time with the kids any more and I was left to rear them alone. I was upset, exhausted and depressed. Roger was so happy with his life. He was touring, recording, doing interviews. He was ecstatic. I wanted to tell him how infrequently he was home effected me, but I didn't want to upset him.

I was spending more time with Brian these days. We had always been relatively close but we were closer ever since Queen made it big in the UK. He would call round to check up on me regularly because I told him about how I felt. I told him I was depressed and how I needed Roger but he wasn't around. Brian told me to tell Roger, but for once I didn't take his advice. And now looking back, I probably should have.

March 10th 1975

I was sitting at home alone, not a huge surprise as Roger wasn't there, feeding Elly and Aidan when I heard a loud knock at the door. I put the kids back in their bouncers. The person at the door did not want to wait and they knocked loudly again. "I'm coming!" I shouted.

I opened the door to see a crying, shivering and whimpering Freddie. I took him inside and sat him down beside the fire. "Freddie!" I said. "What's the matter?" "Oh Megan, I just, I oh God, I don't even know what's happening to me." I let Freddie sit and cry for a few minutes to let it all out. After a few minutes I asked Freddie again what was wrong. "Okay, I'm not sure how I'm supposed to tell you this because I can't even comprehend it. Now please take this into consideration: you are one of the first people I've told. I've told close friends and my assistant but not many know. Megan, I, I think..... I'm gay..." said Freddie. He looked up at me with puppy dog eyes. "Really?" I asked. Freddie nodded. "I've been seeing a man the past few months." He mumbled. "Oh Freddie!" I said. "What about Mary? This will crush her!" I said. "I know it will, of course it will and I don't want to have to do this to her. But that's the way it is. I think I like men; I can't spend my life in a relationship with a woman, someone who doesn't fulfil me." He said. "When are you going to tell her." I asked very concerned for Mary. "Not yet, not until I'm completely sure that it's true. And also Megan, please please don't tell her." "I won't Freddie." "Promise?" "Freddie, I promise."

A/N: a lot of these ideas I got were from @johnlennonaid and thank you very much. What has been mentioned in this chapter will be what's going to happen in the next few chapters. If you have anything you would like to contribute to this story, that would very very much appreciated.
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