A Life With You - BTY VERSE

What If?

Imagine. When I got back home that night, she was already asleep. She looked so peaceful and relaxed. It made me smile. I had been asking myself all day: what if I made other choices? What if I had giving up acting? Or music? What if didn't sing to her that night? My whole life would be different now. I kept having those thoughts in my head as I lay down next to her. I put a lock of hair behind her ear and I felt her leaning into my touch. I placed a kiss on top of her head and felt my eyelids getting heavier until I completely crashed.

I'm in a car, driving as a girl sits next to me. She's nothing like her. She doesn't have her cute smile or her beautiful eyes. The girl doesn't seem that happy either. "She's intrusive" the woman exclaims. I can hear the anger in her voice. "She's not" I groan. It's always the same old thing. "She is! You don't even notice it" she whines. I can feel a headache coming by just from listening to her. "You're not gonna do anything about it, huh?" she guesses. I park in front of the building and turn to her. "I have no reason to. She's not doing anything wrong, Kelly" I repeat. I'm trying to stay calm, but it's hard not to bring out my annoyance. "You know what? I'm tired of this. It's either her or me" she affirms and crosses her arms. She refuses to look at me. I huff "Really? You're really being that childish?". "I tried, Darren, I really did. But I just can't take it anymore" she clenches her teeth. "You can't ask me to do that" I almost whisper. "Why not?" she asks. "Because I can't live without her!" I snap. Silence fills the car once again. I put my head into my hands in frustration. "You're in love with her" she says. It's not even a question; she knows it. Of course I'm in love with her. I have been ever since I saw her smile in that amphitheater. I turn my head to the window so I don't have to look at her. "We're done, Darren" she tears into me. She gets out of the car and slams the door behind her. I sigh. Why does it always have to end up like this?

I get out of the car and walk to the entry of the Starkid mansion. Every one of my relationships end that way. Nothing lasts more than a year. I knock on the door and look down at my feet. If only I've told her how I felt 7 years ago... The door opens and Meredith greets me. "Wasn't Kelly supposed to come?" she frowned. "Uhm... I'm not sure she wants to be around me right now" I admit. Meredith looks at me with a pity look. She knows, everyone knows why I can't commit to all the girls I've been dating. "Come on" she smiles slightly at me and lets me in. All my friends from college are here, and I know she is too. I find myself looking for her as I greet everyone. I hear her voice behind me and turn around with a huge grin on my face. Suddenly, none of my problems matters anymore. Her face lights up when she sees me and she runs into my arms. I can feel her arms around my neck, holding me close as she keep saying how happy she is to see me. And she means it. Every single word. I can feel it. When we pull apart, I can see all the unsaid love we share for each other in her eyes. She loves me too. I know it. I hate myself even more now. We take a seat on the couch. I only have eyes for her. Not surprisingly that it pissed off some of my ex-girlfriends. After a few small talks and catching up, she speaks. "I have an announcment" she glances around with a small smirk. "Gabriel asked me to marry him" she announced. My face falls. No, no, no. She looks at me and her smirk disappears. She shoots me a sorry look. I don't like this. "What did you say?" Lauren pratically screams into her ear. My heart wasn't ready for her answer. "Yes!"

"No!" I screamed. I found myself on my bed again, my heart beating extra hard on my chest. She turned on the light and got closer to me. "Babe are you okay?" she asked, very concerned. Her eyes were still trying to get used to the light. She had quite the bed head, but she looked so beautiful.She put her hand on my shoulder, which helped calm my quick breathing. "You're with me" I grinned. "Uhm... yes. Where do you want me to go?" she chuckled. I took her into my arms and closed my eyes again. "I'm so happy you're here" I breathed out. "Well I live here with you, remember? Are you sure you're okay?" she asked again. "I've never been better".