T.L. Ako Sa'yo

Chapter 74 (On My Own)

Still Yana's POV

For two weeks, I kept mum about what happened. I kept my distance from kuya and Arkin. I cried the whole time thinking about it, na sana hindi totoo lahat ng narinig ko, na sana panaginip lang lahat ng ito, but it's not.

"Why are we going on this trip all of a sudden?" tanong ni Arkin when we reached the airport.

I have booked a flight to the Philippines two days ago and told him just last night.

"Ah, we need to be there for a client meeting." Tugon ko.

"Akala ko ba pupunta si Mr. Martinez dito in a few weeks?" tanong niya.

"Ah, he said we need to go there ASAP." Sagot ko.

He looked so stressed out. He has been like this eversince we came back from the Philippines.

"Have you met with your therapist?" tanong niya.

"Ah, y-yes. We met yesterday." Tugon ko.

I'm almost teary-eyed that he's still concerned about me despite all the things he's going through. Maraming tao sa airport. I held his hand. He looked at me.

"You okay?" tanong niya.

"Ah, y-yes, maybe I'm just, I'm just anxious."

"If you're thinking about Thia again..."

"No, no. I'm not thinking about anything else. I trust you. I'm just afraid."

He just kept silent and held my hand too. I felt the urge to cry pero I did my best not to show it to him. It was silent trip back to the Philippines. I thought I'd never come back here again, threatening him that I would take my life if he doesn't come with me, I thought he would be mine forever but here I am, back here. Back in the place where I feel so vulnerable of losing him.

Just like any other times, he's always silent. I realized now how I still don't know a lot about him despite being with him my whole life.

"Okay, we should make the appointment right away so we can take care of things." Wika niya upon arriving at our house. He looked at his luggage.

"O-okay." Tugon ko.

"Why did you pack up a lot of my clothes? I thought we're only staying here for three days." Tanong niya.

I looked at our luggages. He has at least three luggages full of his clothes while I only have one.

"Ah, I, just in case." Tugon ko.

"So are we meeting Mr. Martinez today?" tanong niya.

"Ah, don't you wanna go somewhere else?" tanong ko.

"Where?"

"I mean, your friends. You haven't seen them since Drew's wedding." Sagot ko.

He looked at me.

"Yana, we're here for business. I just want to get done with this." Wika niya.

I looked at him. He is still handsome as ever but he looked so stressed out. All he care about is work. He barely goes home. He is destructing himself by working too hard. He even started smoking months ago. What have I done to him? He wasn't who he used to be. It's my fault. It's because of my selfishness.

I didn't realize I was already crying in front of him.

"Yana?" he was confused, nilapitan niya ako. "Are you okay?" tanong niya.