T.L. Ako Sa'yo

Chapter 30 (Trev)

Yana’s POV

Marami din akong gagawing assignments ngayon. Hay, mahirap din talaga pag maraming responsibilities sa school. Later, I heard my phone ringing. Sinagot ko iyon.

TREV CALLING...

Si kuya!

[Hello, kuya!] it’s been months since huli ko siyang nakausap.

[Hi.]he coldy said. Ganyan lang siya since the accident. He has never been the kuya I’ve known when we were kids. It’s like everything about him changed since that accident.

[Kuya, mabuti naman tumawag ka. How are you? Have you been well? Bakit ngayon ka lang tumawag?]tanong ko.

[I’m fine. How are you?] tanong niya din.

[Okay lang kuya. I’m fine. Kayo ni mama? Okay lang ba kayo diyan? Uuwi na ba kayo dito sa Pilipinas?]

[We’re fine.]

[Mabuti naman. Bakit ka napatawag?]

[Mama told me, pinapunta mo SIYA sa birthday party mo.] I can sense the anger in his voice.

[Kuya.]

[How many times I have to tell you na layuan mo na siya?] tila galit na ang boses niya. I can hear his heavy breathing over the phone.

[Kuya, please. Hanggang ngayon pa ba?] I did everything to make him forgive Arkin, pero tila matigas na nga ang puso niya.

[You still don’t get it don’t you?]

[Kuya, we’re in this conversation again. Ayokong nag-aaway tayo dahil lang dito.]

[Exactly, why do you keep on seeing him? Alam mo namang ayokong nakikita kang malapit sa kanya.]

[Kuya, hanggang kailan ka ba ganyan?]

[Look at me. I’m worthless.] hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. He still thinks he is worthless. Nasasaktan ako sa tuwing sinasabi niyang wala siyang kuwenta. Hindi ko na alam kung papaano siya tutulungan kung ayaw naman niyang tulungan ang sarili niya.

[Kuya don’t say that.]

[Do you even remember dad? Do you even remember why we suffered a lot? Why I suffered a lot? Why mom is suffering a lot?] tila puno ng panunumbat ang boses niya.

[Kuya, hindi niya kasalanan ang lahat. Wag mong isisi sa kanya ang lahat.] wika ko. I just wanna cry but I held back the tears. Remembering papa, I don’t know why my brother ended up like this.

[As long as I see myself like this, it’s a constant reminder of how that jerk ended my dreams. I will never forgive him.] matigas niyang wika.

Nagawi ang paningin ko sa picture frame sa harap ko. The picture of my kuya 7 years ago. That kuya who has always been with me. The one who always took care of me. My cheerful kuya. But now he’s gone. All because of what happened on that day. I closed my eyes, I can still hear his screams… the screams I’ll never forget.

“Noooooooooooooooo!” isang sigaw ang bumulabog sa masayang kuwentuhan nila habang nasa garden kami. Nagtinginan silang lahat. Si mama, ang parents ni Arkin, si lola Remy.

“Treeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeev!” narinig naming lahat. Sigaw ni papa yun ah!

“Jamie! Jamie bakit?” sigaw ni mama na tila natataranta na. Lahat sila nagsimulang hanapin kung saan nanggagaling ang boses ni papa. I stayed behind mama.