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Chapter 59

Chapter 59. Weakness.

 

 

~Shelle's POV

 

 

I feel so weak and used and disgusted with myself.

 

 

Hindi ako makapaniwalang sinabi ko kay Jace 'yon. Hindi ako makapaniwalang ginawa ko 'yon. I feel so unworthy. Unworthy of their loyalty, trust and love to me.

 

 

What have I done?

 

 

~Joshua's POV

 

 

"How was it? You know... watching me for a whole day... how was it? Did you have fun, lover boy?" He smirked at me. I admit I have been tricked. For someone as knowledgeable and evil like me, I didn't really think he'd notice. Maybe I underestimated him after all.

 

 

"Why're you here?" He gave me a bewildered look and then a half smile that later became a wide grin.

 

 

He was laughing. "Kailangan pa bang tanungin 'yan? May mga taong kanina pa kasing nagbabantay sa akin. Pinapanood nila lahat ng ginagawa ko. Hindi ba't sapat na rason na 'yon para tanungin ko siya kung bakit niya 'yon ginagawa?" I looked around him... huh.

 

 

"I'm sorry for such an oblivious question, Sir Sho. But I seemed to have noticed you don't have anyone whom you have brought along with. That's a pretty tough thing to do for a melodramatic lad like you, if I may say." Pinasok ko yung right hand ko sa bulsa ko as I smirked back at him.

 

 

Mukhang medyo naasar ko nga siya sa sinabi ko. Pero totoo naman, diba? Sa sobrang dami ng drama na nangyari sa buhay niya ganitong klaseng future ang naisipan niyang lakarin. He should've moved on but instead he stayed in the past, wanting all of it to come true but it won't. It never will. Because this is our fate.

 

 

This is the path that we were destined to take. You could’ve changed it, though. But you preferred not to. It was your world, it revolves around you and you decide what’s to happen and what’s not and you decided this.

 

 

Now that I'm saying this... I think life might really be unfair after all. But God only wanted it to be just. Because for me, God is justice not love. If we were all to 'love' each other then what is right and what is wrong? I guess my opinion is a lot different from others (especially the priests), that's why I've never been that religious. The priests and I never really got along well.

 

 

"A pretty tough thing for a melodramatic lad like me? Melodramatic? Is that how you see me? I should be honored, right? Maybe you haven't noticed yet but I manage well on my own, I don't need the help of others. I can do things with my own hands." Natawa ako ng mahina. What lies. Really... I've never seen such a sinful mouth partnered with a fragile soul. He really goes way out of my expectations.