One Life

Chapter 43 ~I'm a Mess~

Songs For Chapter: (ALL THESE SONGS ARE FROM ED SHEERANS NEW ALBUM X CHECK IT OUT ITS REALLY GOOD. I HAVE IT ON REPEAT)

Ed Sheeran- Don't

Ed Sheeran- I'm a Mess

Ed Sheeran- Bloodstream

Justin's P.O.V

I've been calling Y/n all night and all day and she hasn't picked up once. I'm concerned that she may not talk to me but I'm more concerned that she's out with someone else or complaining about how worthless she is when she's really not.

Diggy already ruined her and here I am messing up her life even more like the idiot I am.

"I got this dumbass hangover," Fredo says walking into my bedroom. I don't say anything which causes him to look at me. My elbows were on my knees and my head was resting in my hands.

"Bro wassup? Alfredo says walking towards me. "I'm fine," I say wiping a tear. "Is it Y/n?" He asks sitting on the other end of my bed. I sigh running my fingers through my hair.

"I messed up bro," I finally admit. "I cheated on her and she's not answering my calls." Fredo doesn't really know her very well but he talked to her when she was staying over my house and he does have her number.

"With who?" "Chantel," I respond with great remorse. He widens his eyes at my response. He knows about our past. I know he has so many things to say but he's just holding it back.

"I don't know what to do. I really love her."

Your P.O.V

Later That Day:

I sat on my bed as usual watching Spongebob. I'm skipping rehearsal today. The tour starts tomorrow so I guess that was a bad idea. I have to pack and be ready to leave tonight and so does everyone else but no, they're too busy watching me.

They think that I'll cut myself again but this burns so bad that I'm sure I won't do it again.

I stand up from my bed walking into the bathroom with India behind me. If I go to the bathroom India has to go with me. If I want to eat, one of them follow me.

They don't trust me anymore especially India cause I promised her I would never do it again a long time ago.

I do my business then flush. I walk over to the sink washing my hands. "Are you gonna tell me what he did?" India asks me. I carelessly shrug turning the faucet off.

She grabs my cut wrist and I whimper in agony. "I'm sorry!" She says scared. "It's fine," I tell her. "But can you please tell me," she says. It's not that I don't trust her because I do, I tell her everything. I'm just not ready to tell her.

"When we're on the plane tonight," I tell her. She nods and I smile. "I think I should've went to rehearsal today," I tell her. "Its never too late but how we gonna cover that?" She asks pointing to my scars.

"I have bandages and sweaters," I tell her. She nods and I walk out the bathroom with her behind me. I open my drawer looking for my tights and a crop top.

I grab what I need walking into the bathroom once again. I lotion myself before placing the clothes on my body. I walk out grabbing my duffle bag.

"Where you going?" Jones asks me while standing up. "Rehearsal," I reply. I grab the first aid kit and grab 3 bandages. I place them on all my cuts after applying ointment. I put my sweater on making sure it covered my scars.

Jones Trevor and India grab their stuff following me out the door. Jones opens the passenger door for me and I step into the passenger side of my black Ferrari. He closes it behind me before stepping into the drivers side.

He takes off and drive down to rehearsal.

As soon as I walk into the dance studio I'm greeted by an angry Carter. "I thought you were sick. Class started an hour ago," he says walking towards me. "I know I'm sorry but I had a problem," I lie. "What kind of problem," Carter asks.

"My car broke down but be happy I'm here now Carter," I say punching his arm but he just gives me a stank look. "I love you," I say hugging him. "Don't touch me," he says playing around.

He always says that when I give him a hug. I let go and walk to the center of the dance studio after placing my duffle bag in the corner. "I'm ready guys," I say with a smile as everyone rises from the floor.

The song begins and we all begin to do the routine. It's crazy how much I can just fake a smile.

Sometimes you just have to.

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Carter is actually Matt Steffanina. His name isn't Matt cause I already have a Matt in my story but check out his dance move he's a really good dancer and he'll even teach you the dances he choreographs. Just type in "Matt Steffanina" in the YouTube bar. & while you're watching him check out Ed Sheerans new album X !!!!! It's soo good and that's the reason I didn't write yesterday I was too busy listening to it. FOLLOW ME :)