Watch N' Learn 3

Chapter 29

Chapter 29

Alyssa

We had finally come back from vacation and the last couple of days were so amazing and I still couldn't get over the fact that I am now engaged to my best friend. I love that man with every bone in my body. It seems like we have been having sex a lot more now though and it's always SO BOMB. I didn't tell my mom that I finally lost my virginity but I'm sure they saw the glow the day after he proposed to me. I have yet to stop glowing and I'm loving it.

I instantly put all my energy back into my studio once we got back but I also wanted to spend time with Ryan. I just wanted to be with him every second and I'm constantly missing him. 

"Alley!" Jailee yelled at me.

I jumped and looked at her as I sat in my office. "Girl, what?" 

"What the hell are you thinking about? Damn, you been so zoned out since the trip." Jailee said.

I smiled. "I don't know girl, I'm just on a natural high and haven't been able to come down yet."

Jailee stared at me like she was trying to figure out what was wrong with me.

"What happened? Your engagement?" she questioned.

"Just everything...he really loves me." I said.

Jailee laughed. "Girl...it's got you hypnotized already. I know."

I was blushing. "What are you talking about?" 

"Alyssa, we've been best friends for a while. I'm not stupid. You've had this natural glow since we came back from the trip. I hope he didn't knock you up." Jailee said glancing at her phone.

"Jai, whatever. I just had a really nice trip with him that's all. It's nothing like that." I said.

I don't know why I was trying to hide it from her but I also didn't want to be judged for having sex before marriage...which is kinda why I haven't told my mom. My dad and I are on some weird terms right now. I think he's upset with me still and I just don't know what to say or how to talk to him so I haven't. I've been avoiding him and he hasn't made any effort to talk to me either. It's like we're avoiding each other.

"You lost your virginity finally. I'm not stupid, it's okay. This man will be your husband soon. Who am I to judge anyways? I'm not a virgin myself and you know that. I love seeing you glow and just genuinely happy. It gives me a little hope." Jailee said.

"I've never felt such a connection with him before Jai. It's been amazing since the very first time it happened and it keeps getting better and better. I have no idea what I'm doing when we are doing it but he doesn't care like he guides my body...I don't know. I have always known that he loves me but when we actually did it the first time...it felt like I connected with him in a way I had never done before. Nobody mentioned it would feel this good. He makes love to my body...to every inch of it, then stares at me like I'm the most beautiful person he's ever seen." I described.