Jay Rose

Chapter four: broken

I don't know what to do, should I act like nothing happened? Should I leave? Should I just die? I will go with the third one.

Facing Nathalie was very hard one me especially when she is my bestfriend, she had tears in her eyes and she was looking down then up to me, I was just standing still glued to the floor. She kept taking small steps towards and I swear I was hearing my heartbeats, every step she took towards me, I felt like I was talking the same step but backwards, unable to face her, but after all it's not her problem or his, it's mine. They say that the problem with the love is that we can love whoever we want, but so can they, and I really couldn't agree more. He is free to love anyone he wants, and she is too, but am I the barrier between them? Probably.

"Look nat whatever happened you are not involved, if you like it's okay I am not going to be a barrier between you two, you are my bestfriend and I will be happy for you." Maybe I won't be very happy with the idea of having my bestfriend dating the boy that I have a huge crush on, but in the end if she likes him, I must get over him, for her, for them, and for me.

"What? Are out of your fucking mind Lana?" She began.

"I don't have anything towards Adam I won't do that to you, you are my bestfriend I know how much you like him, he is just a coward for not knowing that."

"Nat he is free to like whoever he wants even if it isn't me, and I am okay with it." I cracked.

"No you're not."

"I am nat, I will be."