Jay Rose

Chapter 66: me before you

"So what are you planning on doing for Louis's birthday?" Anna asked.

"I've got that settled from a long time. I just hope it goes well." I said with a smile.

"Tell me about." She replied.

"First I want it to in front of the lake and with the sunset the view will look magnificent. I want to prepare boxes, each one contains his favorite things. Some will be food, clothes and some kind of notes and letters. I will put them in a line and then he will pass every box." I tried to imagine it.

"That's so cute Lana. I can help if you want." She offered nicely.

"Of course you can, I would obviously need help in preparing that."

Swaying with my thoughts around, I began to think about how can a person flip when in a relationship. I've never seen such a good relationship in my life that was based on true love and sacrifices. I thought Riley and Alec could be, but turns out he's like others in these generations. Obviously Luke and Hailey aren't the one because despite how many times they both agree on continuing forever, there are four girls and boy, who know that the base of their relationship is on a teen a hormonal boy wants to fulfill his needs by other girls, and like any other cliche story it happened to be her best friend. I knew how many times Luke was pressuring Nathalie about things they should do together. All she cared about was Hailey, but the pressure was stronger than that and so she couldn't stop. She was like a lost child not knowing where to go but she knew that this road was not a good end, but she was too scared to call for help. She feared that people will see her in a different way, but she also pictured Hailey in her mind every time Luke sends her a text. She had no option but to obey his orders and continue this road despite the ending. She cracked every time he wanted something from her, screaming from the inside calling for help but get none. She knew that by informing Hailey about how her boyfriend is a cheater, wont end well either. Hailey is deeply in love that no matter how many people tell her that Luke is the bad person, she won't believe, and so Nathalie had no other option but to continue for eight months drowning down everyday, every second he texts her and by her own thoughts she could fill a whole ocean with it.

A good relationship is not about not seeing the flaws in the other one. In fact it's about loving those flaws because in your point of view, you think it's great. It's not just about not looking at other girls, sometimes it can be about looking around and thanking god that you got the perfect one. Jealousy can be present, but also it's an indicate that no matter how many boys are trying to reach for this girl, she chooses you in the end.

Everything can flip in a second when the trust is gone, or when love itself fades away. The worst thing, is when one of them losses interest in the other. It breaks them because while you were up making up your dreams about them, they are also up making a way to tell you that the love you two once had is now gone. No matter how many times she wanted it to end, deep down she knew that it will break her when he leaves because he can easily replace her, but what will she do when she finds out that she got nothing now to give any other boy. She will be afraid of not being fair because he truly deserves more than just a broken girl, but she used all she got in a boy who wasn't even interest.

"My birthday is coming." Louis said excitedly on the phone.

"Got that figured out long before you say it." 

"Hmmm, and what exactly you figured?" Good job Louis, won't say.

"Oh keep dreaming about it." I smirked.

"Come on, just tell me."

"No it's supposed to be a surprise! I can't tell you."

"When will you?" He asked.

"On your birthday you idiot."

"I can't wait for that." He said and I smiled. "Lou, I gotta go I'll call you later."

"Yeah sure. I love you."

"Me too." He answered and the line went off.

I decided to spend my time drawing and going something useful once, as my mood was great until I got that message.

*going out with Nathalie and Alexis. Will call you later.*-Louis.

From that I knew that he closed the line with me to talk to them and then they all decided to
Go out. I wish that Louis was there for me as he is with them. The problem is that I may be surrounded by a lot of people, but none of them like him. There comes time when I feel so done with life and the person I always got to was Louis, now I just shut my phone and refuse to interact with anyone. Three reasons, all I ever think about is Louis and the past things, two is that no one shall ever understand me as Louis does. Three is simply no one cares.

I've been sad for so long I forgot this isn't normal. My smiles look so normal. My laugh has sounded so happy. I forgot this isn't me. This isn't the me before you.