Jay Rose

Chapter 59: missing presence

"Lana are you okay?" Mom stormed from the door and running directly at me with dad by her side.

In all honesty, she's the woman any child could ever dream for. My role model, and someone I always look up to. There's times when all she does is work, but deep down I know that her home is her number one priority. She manages to be that boss that you don't mess with, and also to be that beautiful brunette woman that fulfills her house with all the kinds of comfort. A woman who gives, and never receives. Spending years of holding the family together and making bonds that will never break.

"I'm—im okay." I whispered.

Seconds later I was lifted up and directed to my home again in just few seconds, how lucky it is to be separated from your cousins by just a wall.

My parents left me on the bed in order for me to get enough sleep, but me being me, I kept on overthinking everything all because a call came at the very wrong time.

"Lana?" He said softly.

"Hey." I replied.

"How are you now?" He asked. I really wanted to know wether he's really worried, or it's just a simple question.

"Better." I whispered.

"I was so worried about you. I came by your house two times." He said.

"Really, you did?"

"Yes. I wanted to check up on you, but It looked like the house was empty so I thought you were out."

"Was at my." And for a second I was stopped from forming a proper sentence, but then continued. "At my cousins."

"Will I see you tomorrow?" He asked.

My head was very heavy, and shortly I began to not feel anything near me.

Just as I was entering my comfortable zone of sleep I heard the 3 words, eight letters A girl always wished to hear.

"I love you Lana."

And my eyes went shut.

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Here comes a time when you don't know where you stand anymore in your life. Nothing is figured out, and certainly nothing is on the right track. You came to a point where you don't even want to contact people anymore, want to live and end it. Sadly, it's not my thing to end it whenever I want. What is more sad, that if it was my choice, I wouldn't be here for sixteen years.

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"Are you sure you can go? You know you could tell your teacher that you couldn't." Mom said worriedly.

"Ye..yes mom. I-i have to."

"Just take care okay? Let me know if anything is wrong with you."

She kissed me and at last she let me go.

After exactly 15 minutes I was greeted by Anna, Kylie, Alexis, Hannah and char. All asking about the details about what happened, but I struggled to form even a small sentence.

After a while came in Nathalie with a big smile on her face and moments later we were both hugging each other tight. I missed her so much.
The way we always hugged each other when we were down, the forever promises. But we promise forever in a world where life is temporary.

"How are you now?" She asked with that usual spark in her eyes.

"I'm good." I whispered with a smile. Obviously after fourteen years of friendship, she knew exactly when I was lying. In that moment, she knew I did but she decided not to press it. After all we're still not on the right path with each other.