Jay Rose

Chapter 11: hard to forget

Hurt. Guilt. That's all what i was feeling. Should I tell Adam and end things? On the other hand harry is not a permanent person in my life, we all know that likes to talk to everyone to expand his circle, so can go and never come back, or come and never leave. I was really miserable, I was afraid of losing Adam for harry, or lose my chance with harry for Adam. You know they say if you love two people always choose the second one, because if you loved the first one you wouldn't be able to fall in love with the second and let me say that to you that's just bullshit. I mean harry is been in and out of my life and I don't know when I will be able to see him. On the other hand Adam and i's relationship isn't really in its correct order, so my go to was Anna.

I don't know why I didn't go to Nathalie at this point but I Anna was always close to my relationship with Adam and Nathalie on the other hand began to be close with hailey and Luke's relationship which is fine with me.

Having pizza and 15 cans of Pepsi to grew the balls to tell Anna every single detail about it and to tell me what to do. Anna is a very understanding person so I told her everything and waited for her to scream at me but she didn't, I fact she did the complete opposite.

Anna has always been fund of my relationship with Adam, always been close to him, and talking to him all the time about me to him but in the end she is my bestfriend. She is all my classes and also Adams. And that what was made me afraid, that she will be on Adams side just because she's bestfriends with him, yet she didn't. Anna was one of the few people who knew about harry, she hasn't seen him nor talked to him, but she knew that there is someone called "harry philips" who exists in earth, everybody knew him.

"Okay so hang on now lana, you still have feelings for hot harry?" Yup that's what she calls him. I don't blame her though.

"I don't know anything Anna, I just don't want to hurt Adam anymore especially that I am feeling that we both just gave up on our relationship."

"Did you gave up because of harry?"

"No anna it was long before Harry showed up"

"You know I'm always going to be there for you, so right one you have to choose your own happiness whether with harry or Adam or alone, but don't break Adams heart Lou."

"I know and that's what I'm afraid of, I really love Adam always, but we got on the wrong track and we just sort of drifted apart. Either way Harry has nothing to do with."

"Yeah I kinda knew that your relationship has been caught up, but you too have passed many things in those 5 months like damn a lot, so I thought it was a phase or something."

"I don't think it's a phase Anna, I think it's the end of it."