Jay Rose

Chapter five: so broken.

They say there are other fish in the sea, I say fuck you he was my sea.

After a week of crying non stop and Nathalie thinking that I am going to cut her out of my life, I am glad to say I am okay now until this happened.

Dear Lana,
         I'm sorry for everything I caused to you, I really am. You have to know that I didn't have the intention of hurting you, I will never have. You are on of the most amazing girls I have ever seen, you are so kind to everyone, and very charming and beautiful in your own way. You can make anyone laugh when they even don't want to smile. You have to know that I am truly sorry for getting between you and Nathalie, and I didn't mean to cause a problem between you both, I know how close you both are. But please don't lose Nathalie because of me, in the end I am just a boy, but she is your bestfriend, and I know how much she means to you, and how much you mean to her. now Nathalie got a lot of anger towards me, she thinks that you are going to cut her off because she was the reason, but please Lana Nathalie got nothing to do with, she was just a crush and maybe I fell hard for her, but I didn't mean to hurt you either way. I'm sorry for all the tears. I really hope you can forgive me and we can just be friends like before.
Love,
Adam.

And that was it, the tears that I have been holding for two days came all in a second, I couldn't hold it anymore I know I can't. Having mixed emotions is a really fucked up thing. You just don't know what to do in your life anymore. Be embarrassed that your crush knows about you? Or be hurt for having then liking your bestfriend? Or the feeling of not being enough for them to like? After all of this emotions, I decided to not respond to Adam, and turn to a new page in my life, hopefully to have a better one.