Jay Rose

Chapter 54: the power of destroying

Because in a world full of problems and fake people and worrying about non sense things, there's always that person who makes everything a lot hell better. In my case, I am thankful that I have two, I was too blind to see them for so long. All about Anna & Caleb.

Having all my mind being set up about whether I should break up with Louis and confront Nathalie with everything that has been going on, Caleb and Anna has always been there. I couldn't be more than thankful for that. Caleb and I were not that close long ago, but talking to him always made me feel like I'm special for someone, truly. Always been there for me in my darkest days and nights. Always supporting me through everything I am doing, and always encouraging me to do the best. And the way he listens to me when I am talking about what is bothering me, makes me want to cry even more because of how much he deserves someone who doesn't always think about her boyfriend and stuff.

As for Anna, she's the kind of girl that god gives you young so you know the true meaning of a lifetime bestfriend your whole life. Spending the good quality time with her and feeling like I am home, they're my home. She's the girl that my family treat her like she's one of their daughters, laughing and cuddling with her and even having their own handshakes. A girl that they know that their own daughter depends on her in everything, a girl that I can tell everything to and trust that she won't tell a person, a person who I can give her the power to destroy me but trust her not to.

I have the perfect combination of bestfriends and family, but throughout my life I was too blind to see that, yet I'll spend my whole life regretting doing that.

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"Mom! Where are my shoes."

"Downstairs you left them from yesterday's, you're going to pay for that when you come back."

"Yeah sure, love you." I kissed her goodbye and went away.

Needless to say that my whole day got a lot hell worse when I was reminded that I am back to my overthinking. Sometimes I wish I was dead instead.

"Look Nat I love this picture of both of us." Louis said.

He showed her a picture of both of them looking at each other, as she was lying down and him looking at her.

"We look like couples in here." She responded.

"Yeah we do." He replied.

I'm so tired of hearing things that bothers me and then I have to stand up and leave right away, not that louis cares or her but I do. This time I decided not to stand up or do anything, but I was met by the luck when Aiden came all the way and told me he wanted us to talk privately.

"Something wrong?" He asked.

"Everything."

After I fainted in school the other day I went back home and immediately called him and told him everything happened, he wasn't fund of the idea of me dating Louis either.

"Cut then off." He said. What?

"What are you talking about?"

"Don't act like that, you're bothered Lana, overthinking sucks and you don't really think about anything else. Cut them off, out of your life for God's sake you'll be a lot hell better."

"Yeah we'll we about that, I have to go now."

"Okay I am coming out too and luke also,So let's go."

Luke came after and the three of us went out of school.

"Lana." I heard a voice from behind.

"Yes Nathalie." I turned my way.,