Jay Rose

Chapter 33: buongiorno italia

February 1, 8:12 am.

It was supposed to be like any school day, going to school hang out with my friends return back do my homework and sleep, but it wasn't. My sister Bella was in Italy doing a surgery, mom accompanied her as we couldn't come cause apparently zayn's and I education is more important than our sister. I know they did that because they didn't want us to feel the pressure mom is feeling right now, but still I wanted to be there for her.

"Lou how's your sister?" The girls asked when I entered.

"I know nothing still mom didn't call."

"Don't worry about it, everything will turn out just fine." Anna comforted me.

There was no sight of Nathalie...nor Louis.

I wasn't really thinking about where they are, but I really hoped they were beside me. Thinking about where my sister is, whether she's alright or no just made me paralyzed more.

"Hey are you okay?" Caleb asked.

"Yeah good."

"Any news about your sister?"

"No actually still."

Now we were Caleb, Anna and I standing alone in the hallways. Suddenly I began to think about million things and I really couldn't control the tears.

"God Lana no." Anna said.

"It's just that I really wanted to be there, I called mom and her voice wasn't alright at all she just hang up on me without telling me anything." I teared up.

"Yes Lana but that's not the first time for your sister to do this surgery, she's going to be alright. What I know about the doctors in Italy that they are really go—-."

I really didn't listen to the rest of what Caleb said, I know how selfish I am for him trying to comfort me and I am not even listening, but something caught my eye. Something inside the dark classroom. Louis and Nathalie.

My breathing began to be tight, I don't know what got me, but it wasn't something good.
She was sitting on a chair right in front of him, and him being so close to her.

I was glad that there was a window so I can see through and finally Louis and I made eye contact with each other. With still Caleb talking, Louis saw me and opened the door, I thought he was going to come to me and see if I was alright after all I was crying, but he didn't he just took a glance at me and closed the door again to return back to her.

"Didn't he really see you crying?" Caleb asked.

I was still quiet, not wanting to say a word. Him on a side and Bella and mom on the other side.

I felt useless, worthless. He just saw me crying and didn't even bother to tell me what happened? Why do I get the feeling like it's always like that when Nathalie around. No it can't, they are best friends just friends, nothing else lana don't think that.

I continued the day without anything that could make me overthink. Mom called and told me that Bella is out of the room and she's okay, thank god. As for Nathalie and Louis, I didn't talk to them the whole day. It wasn't coming out of jealousy, but is was coming out of confusion. I just have the feeling that something is not alright, why is he changing when she's around? Same things he does for both of us? Her not feeling okay when he's around. It's just all weird to me. Louis and I aren't considered dating, but we told each other about the feelings but still, I don't know how to tell my friends or tell them what. I don't know what to do anymore.

Currently we were sitting Anna, Alexis and I inside the classroom alone doing nothing. Alexis just listening to Halsey as she loves the hell out of her, Anna obviously doing some extra work, me just thinking about my shit putting it together.