Jay Rose

Chapter 32: a losing battle

I was back from school still my mind got nothing expect for repeating the day all long. I still wasn't sure what are we now, but him saying that he has feelings for me, made it enough. The smile for the rest of the day never left my face, even my parents saw it weird for a bit as they are used to bitch face I always wear.

It's been weird for a bit that our group chat that we have with Nat, Alexis, Kylie was empty for today. Let me tell you about something, the moment this group was made we never stopped talking, we don't talk about something specific just some random girls stuff, gossiping of course and Kylie saying that she doesn't stand Char these days.

Speaking of char let me get a flashback.

"FLASHBACK."

On July 27,8:14 pm.

"Guys come on we are going to be late on the birthday party." Alexis hurried us.

"Honestly I don't care, Char has been bitchy these days with me." Of course Kylie said that.

"Come on K, it's her birthday just loosen in a bit." I replied. Usually these conversations don't happen infront of Hannah as how bestfriends are they, in the end we are so not close to char as Hannah.

It's a surprise birthday party for char and we are throwing it in a hotel. We got there on time still Char didn't come.

"Hello beautiful, you know white is really good on you." Louis winked.

"Yeah I know that." I smirked.

"I love that attitude."

"You just love it when a girl talks to you Louis." I still had my smirk on and left him to dance for a bit.

Char entered the ball with of course Aiden standing beside her and having a big smile across her face. We began to all cheer up as soon as they entered but I totally forget about something, someone. Anna.

She stood in the back still clapping and cheering for Char, but looking down. She needs to let go, it's not healthy for her after all.

The party began people dancing, eating and taking pictures. Anna was there sitting beside Louis laughing together, which honestly made me happy that she still finds her way back to smile again.

"Hello there friends." I said to them.

"Hey lou." They said back.

It was okay for me to speak in front of Louis about Anna and Aiden as he knows everything even before I do.

"Are you okay Anna?" I asked softly.

"Yeah I am it's just—-." She was cut off, I spent two seconds trying to see what she's looking at until I found it. Dear god. There was standing char and Aiden slow dancing and her leaning on him. What a brilliant time they got.

"Look babe, I know it may be hard, but you really have to let go." I really began to run out of words.

"I know lana, I won't beg someone to love me. I learned long ago that there is no use in hopeless pleas of trying to make someone stay. I am too good to chase someone who doesn't know my worth and I am too wild to keep waiting for someone who doesn't acknowledge my value. I want to be loved  unconditionally. I shouldn't have to fight so hard for it. I don't have time to prove to someone that I am worth it. I shouldn't have to prove any of that."

"Even if you are going to fight for anyone, when you say that certain people are worth the fight, make sure that includes you too." I looked at her than Continued. "just because you didn't find the love back doesn't mean you are not worth it. You're worth more than that. And don't you ever underestimate yourself. You are my bestfriend and you know that. If you don't have a relationship fuck that, you have me in the end. It's all that matters." I smiled.

"And you girls still have me." Louis replied.

"God, go to hell." Anna laughed.

"Lana can I have you for a sec?" Kylie came and asked.

"No you can't." Louis replied before me. And just as they say chicks before dicks, I left Louis to see my other bestfriend.

"I will return your girlfriend back, Calm it down." Kylie replied. What the fuck Kylie!

"Are you out of your fucking mind? What girlfriend?" I told her.

"Well yeah, exactly everyone in here seems to think that both of you are dating already." Kylie answered.

"How's that?"

"They way you too sit together, looking at each other, laughing. He always looks at you when you are not even looking at him."

"Okay I am not up with this shit."

"You like him don't you?" Kylie asked.

"What? No."

"Yeah you do."

"You are such a child, I am going to dance."

"I'm going to get him dance with you."

"Do That Shit, and I swear you won't live to see what I am going to do."

"Shit, don't go that all on me."

"Yeah you don't start shit first."

"Come on let's dance then, I know how much you want him to dance with you, but I will."

"Fuck off."

"Or make him f—."

"Continue you that sentence, and I'll give you a head start to start running."

We laughed together and started to dance, and I really noticed that Louis's eyes never left mine.

"END OF FLASHBACK."

Sadly one month exactly after that day, char and Aiden broke up. It wasn't a news really for us, we knew it was coming but still we felt bad for Char.

Of course Aiden told me before he called char. Both of them were going through a rough path, he began to not answer her, which was a bad move really, and she began to not taking up his shit anymore. Aiden didn't know what to do at that time, whether to talk to her or to break up, but what he did know is that it was the end. I called him that night and told him that he really needs to work and put effort on their relationship because it's not fair for  char. As Aiden being Aiden, he told me that he doesn't know what he wants, but he thinks that he can't continue it. After my call with Aiden it followed immediately with a call from char. I really felt bad for her, she was crying nom stop telling me he dumped her and shit. One week later they were both talking again as friends like old days. I was happy that there was no any tension between them after all, Aiden is not the type of guys who will not acknowledge his ex or any shit, he was so chill we he saw her both of them actually, and they were back as friends.

As for the group, I noticed that Nat, Alexis, Kylie were both online on WhatsApp but non of them were talking on the group which was really weird.

I decided to call it a night and not overthink about anything, and of course I decided to remember the whole day again.