A whole year has passed, and for once and for all I can finally say that I moved on from Adam. Yeah it took me a whole fucking months of pressure and stress and deleting memories from my mind, but in the end I can proudly say that I did it.
So technically Louis and Laila are officially over and Nat couldn't be more happy. As for Louis and I we were stronger than ever, having him by my side through everything it was just great.
We finished the past year by having our ass kicked in every subject possible, but at least we survived.
Today is New Year's Eve, and all my family are celebrating at my aunts house.
"I can't believe the year has past already." Riley said with her voice full of excitement. Riley is my cousin who is just in my sisters grade, they are basically twins, having same friends, same grade, same subjects, even same majors. They have been like that ever since they were born.
"Yeah I really can't wait to see what this new year got us." Malika my aunts daughter said."I'll check my zodiac signs and see what this shit says." Despite malika being the oldest out of all of us, she still check her zodiac sing every year she's out of collage for all that matters.
"Wowwwww gosh really." Malika stated.
"What do you got here malika." Tessa asked. Our family is known for being really big, and Tessa is aiden's sister.
"Libra is betting all lit this year." And they all looked at me. Yeah I am a libra.
"What does it say here?" I asked.
"First three months are going to be great and the last three months are going to be great." She said.
"What about the months in between?"
"Maybe hell."
"Wow thanks cousin."
"All other signs are really shit by the way guys."
"Fuck not this year again." Tessa said frustrated.
"Come on everyone it's nearly 12 o'clock let the count down begins." My father said loudly so that all of us could gather.
"All at once yeah?"
"5" we all began to shout, I really hope this year is going to be amazing.
"4" I hope my grades will be up.
"3" and I wouldn't mind to have a boyfriend either.
"2" I wish my family could stay with me.
"1" I really should stop eating this year.
We all began to greet one another, congratulating on the New Year little did I know that I was congratulating on the year of my funeral.
"I despise you for being libra lana." Malika's voice full of jealousy.
"Seriously malika I don't even care." We all laughed.
*happy New Years besties, love you all* Alexis texted on our whats app group.
*awwww, Happy New Years love, hope I can date this year* and obviously this text belongs to Nat. Despite Nat being extremely gorgeous until now she never dated anyone.
The group chat goes on whether this year is going to be a good one or not,but we all hoped for the best.
I was really occupied on eating the delicious cake, credits to Aidens mom, until I glanced at my phone and saw a text from Louis himself.
*dear Lana,
It's New Years and I couldn't be more thankful having you in my life. I've seen many creatures of human but I've never seen such a person like you, like ever. You're so strong to overcome many things that has happened in your life. You are so brave and I really could wish that I have this braveness. I love how you care about every single one of our group and every birthday of each one of them, you organize it so well to make sure that they'll have fun. We share so many memories together lou and I wish we could spend the rest of our lives creating more of them. Thank you for being there for me in those past years and I promise to be there for you in every memory you are going to make this year. You literally deserve the best. I love you.
With love,
Louis.*
A huge smile was spread over my face when I read the message and I kept on reading it all over again.
"What the hell are you smiling about little lou?"Riley asked with a smile all over her face.
"Oh no it's nothing." I tried to play it cool, but I think I was caught. Why am I afraid to tell them, he's just my bestfriend.
"Is it your love boy?" Melissa asked.
"I don't have a "Love boy" currently." I replied.
"Is it your first love boy, I recall that he was really a good looking boy like damn if he was my age." Of course she was referring to harry.
"I don't even know if I consider him my first love, like yeah he was my first I didn't even had a crush on anyone for 6 years after him." I Said smiling and then continued.
"First Love isn't the person you liked for the first very time. It's the person that you cannot completely erase our of your life no matter how much time passes. I didn't believe that until I met harry." I said looking down. "I guess he was my first in everything, I don't recall loving someone else." "Even him." I nearly whispered on the last part, so that no one could here me.
"I get what you mean lana, I know how hard that felt for having loving someone for 6 years and get no back attention from them." Tessa replied.
"And that boy Adam, what happened to him?" You see the pros of having a big family, nearly all of them are girls, is that you get the best advices ever.
"I don't think that was love, maybe I loved the idea of having someone around me all the damn time. Or having a "boyfriend" for all that matters. I also wasn't anything special for him, the boy was sorry for me in the end, we both didn't work out well. So yeah I wouldn't consider him a love type." I realized that way too late.
"I thought you told me you guys were forever and shit." Riley asked.
"Who knew forever meant 5 months and 7 hours and 3mins." I said softly.
"You know, I hate love like really. How love can damage the person in one second, and in another second it can make you the happiest person on earth, sadly we all love that cycle. I hate how love can make your heart break apart, but as a stupid person you can still gather those parts and put them in the hands of the person who broke them. How love can be an excuse for the late night tears until you realize that your whole cushion is wet. How when you are alone and think about the person you used to love who isn't here with you in the moment, how it crushes you from the inside that you just feel it hard. How can love can make you think about suicide and shit. And the list goes on." Malika tried so hard to not let her tears fall, sadly it did.
"You know what the problem about love is?" Tessa asked us. "Is that you can love who you want, but so can they." And I couldn't agree more.
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Jay Rose
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