Jay Rose

Chapter 19: moving and falling

I tried to remain calm at the sight of seeing them together, I think I succeeded in that. At least give me credits.

Of course we all wished Louis a very happy birthday, and we began to go to our places again. But of course that wasn't Laila's plan.

"Hey lou, Kelly let me inform you." Oh no you didn't.

"This is lana, lana this is Kelly." I know bitch.

"Hey." I said softly. Damn the girl is really pretty.

"Hii." By her eyes, I can tell that she knows who I am.

"Lana come on sit." As if Anna was rescuing me from the most awkward situation.

I can't believe that I just shake hands with my ex's new girlfriend. Did she really have to be pretty? Like she got green eyes for God's sake.

Of course Adam needed to come by to greet all of us. He began with Kylie and she gave him the fakest smile possible and then to Nathalie who she didn't even bothered to make eye contact with him, but then he looked at me. I kept my eyes looking at front and not dare to look beside. Will he even shake hands with me? Will he even say hi? If I looked, will it make things awkward or maybe he would just ignore? I didn't want to put myself into awkward situations, so I just kept looking at front. As if Adam noticed how I was tensed he looked at me one last time and went off to his girlfriend.

The table was really full of awkwardness and tension and I could really feel it under my skin. We were divided into group Laila and us. Even Louis didn't even sit with us, good bestfriend we got here.

"Louis I really did a great job at making this surprise birthday did I?" Laila said. Like for real, she didn't even do anything except for telling us to come.

"Yeah baby I know you did." Baby? Okay okay we got the memo here.

The thought of them being together really made me want to vomit, but if Louis is happy with her then so let it be.

As if all of us were sitting in their own bubble, I was thinking about the moment earlier, how I really greeted my ex's girlfriend and didn't even glance at my ex himself but I was trying really hard to over come drama. Or something more. After all he's the one who chooses to be far away from me.

"You know what Adam do you really have to move?" Louis said loudly, maybe loudly enough for me to hear. What? Move? Where? Adam did talk to me once about him moving but I thought he was joking, didn't know that this day will come. Very soon.

"Yeah man I have to." Adam answered, we made eye contact for 2 seconds then he looked at his girlfriend and smiled at her. He dared to make me jealous by her? Really Adam step up your game a bit.

"But to move to a whole different country, what the fuck man." Louis said. Okay what the actual hell. Adam is moving? When was that even an option for him. Why now?

Instead of Adam answering Louis, I couldn't help but to look at Adam, I really couldn't. Eventually he did look at me too, for a good 1 minute as if our eyes were speaking. Why was it so hard for us to talk like normal people and not exes. Our eye contact didn't last long as his new chick did caught us, I looked at the other way immediately, and Adam he played it cool with her. I sensed that all the girls gave me a look that says "did you know about that" I have so much explanation to do later.

Eventhough Adam and I stopped talking for weeks, it just killed me to see him leaving soon. The feeling of him being gone and probably
Not going to see him again really did affect me hard that I can just feel it in my chest. Why does it have to be so damn hard. But I officially know I will miss him so much.

"Baby please don't go, like what will I do without you." Okay Kelly we get it. Or I get it.

"I'll be back before you know." He winked at her.

"Just get a room you two." Louis told them. As if he then noticed that I was siting as he immediately looked at me mouthing "sorry" if it wasn't your fucking birthday Louis, my answer would be a whole different.

"Been there, done that." And with that I caught a tear I was trying so long to not let it come, at least not infront of them.

"That's it, we're outta here." Nat stands up along with all of us.

We didn't even said goodbye to the rest we just told Louis happy birthday and stormed out.

The moment I stepped out of the restaurant, I began to breath properly again with no pressure or anything. I felt relieved.

"Lou are you okay?" Hailey asked.

"Yeah hails Im good lets just go."

"The only reason that was not letting me smack Lailas head and her body all over the place was Louis, he better appreciate that or else he will find himself being next to her on my list very soon." Nat argued.

"We all know he'll be afraid of that Nat." I tried to crack a joke.

I just couldn't believe that last year on the same day, I was in love with Adam and trying so hard to get his attention in Louis birthday, but now I was just sitting three chairs away from him and his new girlfriend, time flew out quick.

15 minutes later I was back at home doing absolutely nothing, i wasn't really in the mood for anything. Ignoring everyone's texts even louis's and decided to go watch a movie with my sister. Bella is 3 years older than me, eventhough we're sisters we are not alike even a bit.

"What's up with your face." She knows me too well.

"Back from Louis's birthday, it was horrible sis."

"Guess you saw your shit of an ex and his girlfriend." Bella has always been not happy with my relationship with Adam, she always told me that I deserved better. She knew that Adam wasn't the one,it took me too long to realize that.

" let's a watch a movie or something." I offered.

"You know what, I got the perfect movie for you to watch now."

"What is it smartass." I joked.

" he's not that into me." Seriously sis?

"You know what just fuck off."

" come on it really if a good movie by the way."

Bella and I gathered all the drinks and snacks in the house and went straight to the bedroom for our movie night.

"You really do eat a lot when you're sad." Bella looked at me disgustedly.

"I always eat a lot."

"And never gain weight, I despise you sis." I just love her.

Half way through the movie I Figured the tip of the day, after weeks of silence that I realized we make better strangers than we ever did anything else.