Jay Rose

Chapter 70: forever and always H.

You know it's coming to an end when all you think about is how perfect the bond you had with that exact person was. How the infinite times you told each other that you're going to be their forever and always and building up the future together. How you're going to be hand in hand in every adventure you're going through in life. How they will shower you with happiness all day long. The amount of times that he tells you that you've got the smile that enlightens his whole life. How you fucking wish that everything could turn back the way it used to be.

*hey sis.*-Bella

*hey girl, how's Italy?*-lana

*good. How's life there? Everything alright?*-Bella.

*yes everything good.*-lana

*you're not talking to that Louis guy right?* bella.

Since the last time bella heard about Nathalie and Louis's incident she swore to let me not talk to Louis again. "The one who manages to hurt you once, can do it all over again." "If he knew it would hurt you and still does it, then he's hurting you on purpose and no one ever deserves that." Those were Bella's words after she used all the curse words on Louis. You can never guarantee what love would give you back. "Sometimes, you're all you have lana and that will be enough." She used to say.

*no Bella, not talking to them.*-lana

*yeah well let them both fuck themselves. They were unworthy after all.*-Bella.

I knew it would drive bella crazy if I told her that Louis and I were back together, but I wasn't ready for it. Louis and I were coming to an end and I felt that everyday I just didn't know how or when.

"Did you see Miley's last Instagram post?" Louis said on the phone.

"Yeah why?" I replied.

"She looked so hot." He said back.

"Ohh. Isn't that girl who also had a thing going on with Luke? She's dating for God's sake and so is he."

"The fuck did you just said. It's not her problem what the hell is wrong with you Lana." Louis blew out.

"What the hell is your problem Louis? Miley was dating when there were rumors that turns out weren't rumors about her and Luke playing around, don't forget the fact that he's dating our bestfriend too!" What the hell is his problem thinking he could blew out to defend her just like that.

"He was the one who was playing around her not her." He went on.

"Oh really? Did she resist him though? No she didn't because if she did those rumors weren't be spreading out."

"Whats your problem with her? Luke is the one who's responsible for all this hell that happens between them two." And that made no send to me.

"Are you hearing yourself Louis? She was dating too! The fuck she thinks she could mess around with someone who is also dating and then you blame Luke alone. She could've stopped him or told her boyfriend about it but she didn't."

"I can't believe you're saying that." He said.

"Louis will you be okay if I messed around with another boy and I didn't stop him nor did I tell you about it?" I asked.

"Do whatever you want lana. I have to go eat." He said.

"Okay bye." I said and closed the line.

The thought that he didn't even care really did hurt, but I was used to anything came out hurting me. He broke my heart every second, but I still love him with all the pieces.

I thought about all the times the girls and I talking about Miley and Luke messing around at the same time Nathalie and Luke were doing the same.

FLASHBACK.

"I can't believe it's been 8 months and you didn't tell us about the Luke thing." Alexis said to Nathalie.

"I didn't know how. I was so afraid to tell you guys. You guys always talked about how you see Miley as a slut, I was doing the same and even worse with him. I didn't want you to see me as her."

"For starters, that bitch Miley is dating that perfect little cute boy how I don't know until now how she managed to leave him and start messing with Luke while she was dating." Alexis responded.

"I don't care, we both did the same thing with Luke."

"We are going to figure it out, don't worry." Kylie tried to comfort her.

"You need to stop whatever the hell is going on Between you both in order to close everything up without anyone else knowing." I said.

"He's just so abusive in the conversation that I don't know how he manages to make everything slip." She responded.

"Well you need to control that as well." Kylie said and we all looked at each other not knowing how to overcome this mess.

With Alexis thinking that Luke should take all the blame and Kylie and I telling her that Nathalie should too try and stop this, it was hectic in so many ways. We knew that if someone out of the group knew about that, then the percentage of Hailey knowing will be so fucking high. Also trying to avoid any  further things happening between Luke and Nathalie required a great effort exerted to make Nathalie step it up. We all knew how Luke can be so persuasive in so many ways to get whatever the hell he wants, but we wouldn't make our bestfriend get to him that easily without him facing many consequences. Sadly, we never knew how Luke could react or what he might tell Hailey, so for our sakes we decided not to take an action towards him.

"I just want to wake up from this hell of a dream." Nathalie said and we all nodded.

END OF FLASHBACK.

There was so much drama going around at that time that was driving everyone crazy. With all the secrets, and hiding emotions everyone was dying from the inside wanting to finally take a rest from all the drama. With Nathalie being away maybe the drama began to decrease, but I will always feel her presence around me everywhere, in a really comfort way. The Nathalie that is present now isn't the one I've been knowing for fourteen years. I once told her that I will never leave her side no matter what, now I can go on again and tell her the same thing, if only she was there. She wasn't just a bestfriend, she was a whole family that I leant on everyday. Even after all of this, If one day you asked me for help, I will do it blindly because what we had was more precious than anything I had in this world. Forever grateful for having her the whole fourteen years.

Wherever you are, and no matter how many miles away we are from each other, you're always going to be my forever and always.

Love you Nat.