Jay Rose

Chapter 72: their game is over

"Let's order McDonald's!" I cheered.

"Owww, starting with McDonald's ending it with cries all night long." She said and I looked down.

"We'll see about that." I smiled.

I spent two hours trying not to drag this conversation in as I thought that I wasn't ready for it at the time being, I was thankful that char didn't push me to.

"This phone is shit." I complained.

"I don't know how that still works, you literally did damage it." She raised a brow at me.

"Yeah not the only thing that has been damaged." I replied.

"Shit that's deep." She laughed and I tagged along.

I still remained on talking to Louis normally not mentioning the fact that Char is with me, it's better that way.

"Char."

"Yes lou."

"How are you and Aiden still friends?" I asked and she looked surprised by my question.

She smiled and then began.

"Two people breaking up doesn't mean they no longer in love. Maybe it's their fate. Maybe their problems are no longer be fixed. People are known for giving up really fast, and for someone who doesn't even want to try like Aiden made things very difficult between us.  Aiden was hot, charming and great personality but those weren't enough. Our relationship had its downs a lot that he began to think that those were normal but it wasn't for me, never was. Him always not talking to me, not feeling like you're in a real fucking relationship. It was a game for him, maybe a waste of time. I really did love him a lot but I never told him that." And her eyes began to water.

"Why?" I asked softly.

"Because it would scare him away. Aiden is like a child. He wasn't up for a relationship and I knew that but for once I thought that I could change that. Maybe even make him truly love me like I did. I tried so hard but he wasn't giving me any chances. It wasn't really a relationship, it's like we were best friends nothing else. So when we broke up it did affect me a lot but then I realized that he never have given me any chances. I was a person that he wants to waste some of his time with. He didn't give me any chance to fix things, so I won't give him any chances to destroy me."

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

"It's okay, been long time for that." She smiled. "But for the record, one of the hardest things you'll ever have to do is walk away from someone that is no good for you, while still being madly in love with them." And I've never related to something more.

I knew from the beginning that char and Aiden weren't meant to be. She was too excited to try it out, him on the other hand thought it was normal. I remember the days when I was at his house seeing all the messages from Char that he ignored. For her sake, I began on texting her from his phone acting like I was him. He was so focused on his video games for days that even forgets he has an actual girlfriend with needs to be achieved. After their breakup he came out extremely normal, while she fell on the ground wondering what the hell went wrong.

"What's up with you?" She asked.

"Everything." I replied. "It's Louis."

"Of course it is." She said.

"What do you know about us? And Nat?" I asked.

"Look it was obvious that some shit went down between you three because of that bitch Louis, but I don't know the details."

I began telling Char the tiniest details about what happened all from the start so that I can maybe get some closure about the hell im going to do next.

"I'm so sorry that happened." She said.

"Yeah it's okay." I replied.

"What about now?" She asked.

"It's different now, he's been different. I don't know what the hell happened to him that changed him this way, but it's not like before. Constantly having fights that we both got really tired of. Me overthinking about everything and he's not even helping me. I'm so tired of holding on to something that isn't real, I really wish it was." I stated.

"You know, if he's not what he made you think he is, then let him go. Be strong enough to walk away from what's hurting you, and be patient enough to wait for the blessings you deserve."

"I'm not up to another drama anymore, I want it to end with me. I don't know why he's doing this." I replied.

I showed Char some of my chats with Louis to let her get the whole picture of how my life is going on with him and how miserable it can gets.

"That's so fucked up like what the hell." She replied.

"Yeah it is. I didn't even know that he's back with them." I said.

"Oh god Lana of course he is. You know how he doesn't like being the one who is not loved and cared and the centre of the fucking universe. He wouldn't miss the chance especially when you cut loose with them. He's playing on both ropes to keep you both under his wings. What an asshole."

"Do you think there's something between them both? You know who I'm talking about." I asked.

"I just don't want to get you upset Lou, it's kinda fucked up. Look I just don't want you to start on him or anything maybe i am wrong but I will just tell you what I think." She paused and looked directly at me.

"He's using you. Pretty damn much. He knows that you don't want to be just friends with him you want more, yes he maybe did like you at first but I think that just ended a while ago. Lana by the chats, that doesn't look like someone loves or even likes someone. He doesn't want to leave you but he doesn't want a relationship with you either. He knows that if he told you that, you're going to cut him off and you know how he gets when people start talking. Part one of the story Aiden and Caleb got really mad at him and they're his best friends and they were about to fuck him because of you and if that happened again things would get bad with him and the boys. His plan is to keep you but treating you like shit so that if you want to break up, you be the one who wants that and not him, and with that there will be nothing on him."

"Oh shit." Was all I can say at the moment.

"I'm sorry girl. I just don't want you to be so blinded by him." She comforted me.

"It's okay. All good." I said.

"Why don't you just talk to him?" She asked.

"I'm floating in a sea of things I never told him before, and I think I'd rather drown than ever let him know."

"Understood." She said.

"I am so naive what the hell." I began to tear.

"Don't you dare blame yourself because of him. He is fucked up with his own things and if he wants to be with her, let him be. He's the one who is losing in the end not you. You have us, you'll always have us. Me, Caleb, Anna, Hannah and Aiden and literally your whole family and more of people in school. If that's a battle, then he's clearly losing because you've got a whole fucking army behind you that he can't mess with."

Char's words really made me smile, but I was just so mad that I didn't see the whole picture from the beginning. So many questions were going on but the main was why was I not enough for him?

"You know what?" Char went.

"What?" I replied.

"Once you fall in love with yourself. Their game is over."