Jay Rose

Chapter 73: the finale

But what if he did change? What if he doesn't has his eyes on some other girl? What if he's so loyal that I can't see it? What if my overthinking will make me lose him?

After Char's talk I still couldn't believe that there may be a chance of Louis doing so, I began to make up excuses, but deep down I knew it was right, all of it.

FLASHBACK

"Ahhh, mom my phone is not working anymore." I groaned.

"Really? How so? We were just fixing the screen and the guy said it was fine." She replied.

"I don't know it's not working anymore."

My phone began on shutting down on its own and not opening anymore. Just on the right time.

I opened the iPad so I can open my Instagram to dm the girls about my phone, but most importantly is to text Louis.

And I was right. Our texting rate began to decrease due to the result of "Louis not opening Instagram that often" I didn't buy that shit, but went on. If you want something you get it, if you love someone, you'll do everything even if it requires just opening Instagram for them.

It wasn't that bad staying without a phone for a long time, it just made time for me to think and just have a good time on my own. Final exams were just around the corner and I can sense that I'm going to fail it all. My concentration wasn't on any of the subjects or books, it was in a whole different direction. I really wasn't up with any of it, but I'm not just losing Louis, now I'm losing my future too.

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Days passed, exams passed and here comes the last day. How I wished of that day coming for so long.

Everyone getting out of the building trying to find their freedom outside. First thing I thought of was going seeing louis and how excited I was. I did find him, but on the very wrong time.

Standing with him was Nathalie and Alexis and I knew it was wrong for me if I went. I watched for far away how his eyes is always on her. How his smile never left. How he couldn't calm himself when he's around her. How she returns his smile with a half smirk and a blush that she couldn't even look into his eyes. How I wished that he could look at me the same. Because once upon a time, he used to look at me the same way.

I decided to walk away not wanting to continue nor to interrupt. I found louis sending dms through my iPad but I ignored it all. I wasn't up with it now.

Anna was still inside the building and I lost her on the way out, so I went towards the car to wait for her so we could go back together.

Seeing everyone cheering up and screaming their Lungs out as they're finally over with schools shit. I wanted to be that too. I just don't know how to be happy again.

Isn't it sad when you get hurt so much, you can finally say "I'm used to it."

But letting go wasn't a way for me. Sometimes, the only reason why you won't let go of what's making you sad is because it was the only thing that made you happy.  

If I hold on to you, it hurts, but I let you go, it hurts even more.

I was tired of being sad, tired of not having my smile back on, tired of my parents seeing me depressed all the time, tired of always sleeping by crying. I wasn't my self for so many months, yet nobody noticed that.

END OF FLASHBACK

After school being over, everything changed. Began to be more close to Anna, char, and Hannah and I began to live again.

*Fast and furious is on!*-Lana.

*i need a nap now, I'll watch it when I wake up.*-louis.

*okay. I love you.*-lana.

*i love you too.*-louis.

I couldn't fall in love more with that movie, just makes everything better.

"Lou, good news!"mom shouted.

"Yeah mom."I replied.

"Your phone is now opened."

"What? How?" I asked curiously.

I went downstairs saw my phone lighting and I was really happy it did.

"How did that happen?" I asked.

"Bella worked something on your iCloud and I don't know something happened. Just take it. But it doesn't work right. Like the touching is hard it's still not fully operating."

"Thank god I got a new one, when is it coming by the way?" I asked.

"Few days." Mom replied.

I took my phone and began to see the many messages that I didn't see and the many dms. Weird because all my dms are opened on my iPad.

*i love you.*

*we should go to that place together😉*

*im going to propose like that.*

And all from one person. Louis.
I got my iPad and opened my dms and I saw that I didn't get those dms until I realized that the two accounts weren't the same.

It was Nathalie's.