Jay Rose

Chapter 60: hidden

"I'm so not ready for another lesson!" Alexis groaned.

"Don't we all?" Kylie said back.

Because what I hate more than my current condition is go on and listen to the total current inside the battery while it's parallel with two other lamps.

"How much time is fucking left?" Alexis asked.

"W-we just-t started." I said slowly.

"You shouldn't have come today, you got an excuse after all." She replied and I just shrugged.

The girls and I were just sitting at the back some of us are on their phones, others are whispering and talking and lastly sitting a very aggressive Alexis.

The boys, on the other hand, were having their eyes glued onto the board and hands on the paper answering questions. Well, two types of groups.

In exactly 2 hours the lesson was almost over making us all sprint all the way outside for fresh air.

"I really don't care about fucking electromagnetism. Why am I taking it?" Kylie asked.

"The question my friend is why are we in IG?"Alexis told back.

"You're right." Kylie smiled.

"I wanna go to the park now." Nathalie said and all of our heads turned to her.

"It's 10 pm, you won't see a thing." Kylie said.

"So?"

"Well I'll go with you." Alexis said and then both of them made their ways to the park right across of us.

"You know I should head home, so tired. Bye everyone." And kylie went off too.

Now it was just Anna, the boys and I. I sensed Louis's eyes never leaving Nathalie as she was walking. The more they go far, the more he gets tensed and maybe...worried?

He spotted me after and gave me a small smile. And that's the thing that hurts the most, is when I'm with you, the thought of someone else pulling your attention away from me kills me a little inside each time.

"How are you now?" Liam asked from beside me.

"G-good." I replied with a smile.

"You're going to be okay, you know that?" Little did he know that my brain wasn't the only thing that needed comfort, my whole life does.

"Yeah." I said back.

I realized that Louis was narrowing his eyes at us the whole time, and when I caught him he just came and sat beside me which made Liam stand up and making his way a little far from us.

"You look beautiful today." He said and made me pull a small smile on my face.

"Still not remembering somethings?" He asked.

"N-Noo." And I put my head down.

"No need to be all sad about it. It's okay things are going to be fine. Main thing is that you're alright now. Thats all that matters."

As I was about to reply, came in Nathalie and Alexis back from the park arguing about something.

"Guys, I lost my phone!" Nathalie half screamed.

"What? How?" Anna asked.

"So I had 1 percent battery on my phone and then I thought why won't I just throw my phone because hell I don't want it anymore."

"So?" Caleb replied.

"So then my battery went zero and I couldn't find my phone because I don't know where The hell I threw it!"

"Oh shit." Anna said.

"I'll come with you, and we'll search again don't worry." And Nathalie went off but this time with Louis and her, alone.

"How are you girls going back home?" Caleb asked.

"Lana's parents are going to pick us up." Anna answered.

"Okay I'm going leave. I'll call you Lana okay?"
He said and I nodded.

I saw Louis and Nat fade away inside the darkness with flash from his phone so they can find her phone. I noticed how his smile grows wider and wider when she's around, or maybe when they're alone. I noticed how she acts shy and cute when he's there. I noticed how his eyes never left her and how uncomfortable that makes her because she doesn't know how to act.

"Lana, your parents are here, we should get going."

And we made our way back home.

Because when you think about him, you think about everything that it's related to him. His flaws and his beauties. His laugh, and his sparks. How you know every tiny detail about him, and how his routine goes on. You just don't ask how his day went because he kept updating you on every step towards his day. The way he sends shivers into me when he just passes by. I couldn't agree more to someone who once said 'a force of your air brushes against my hair and then everything becomes alright.' I saw you at your worst and I never even fucking thought about leaving you. Because all I want was for someone to look at me and see the person I hid so well.

I couldn't think the way back home except about them. How simple feelings may change lives. How a person can destroy friendships based on many years. How you could grow more feelings from a person you used to think so little about. How tables may turn in just a blink of an eye. How you you go on from friends to lovers to maybe strangers. How we once were a team of Nathalie and I talking all about Louis, now it's the exact opposite. How once a person may be your whole world, but now you question yourself whether you should say hi or act like you don't see them. How when you got a great news think that you may share it with them, but reality hits you that nothing is like before. How when you're down and keep on thinking that this person used to lift you up and tell you those specific words that will make your smile appear again, you think that no one would do the same like them. Sadly, nobody is able to forget someone who once was so important. You just get used to that someone not being around anymore. And in that moment with all that happened, I faced reality that from now on, Nathalie and I could never go one and be the same like before, and I'll just have to deal with her not being in my life anymore.