Jay Rose

Chapter 10: hell got down

Harry. Harry Philips, and don't get me started.  You see In every school there is this one person who left school and all of sudden became the hottest guy on the planet and knows the entire world. And that was harry.

That's not enough, harry was my first crush and I was his, long in grade one, we liked it each other so much but we didn't say a word. We kept on talking with our eyes instead of words, but we knew damn well what we were talking about. He was my crush for six years straight, grade four he switched schools and we didn't get to see each other often, but our sisters were bestfriends, so we saw each other every once in a while, but that wasn't enough. I kept on having my little crush to him as a secret until grade 6, yeah I was a loyal kid. But at that point I realized that the person I fell in love with isn't the same person he is in back then. When he switched schools as if he switched everything, personality, looking, friends obviously, and attitude and god knows how is his Attitude. It was horrible for me to cooperate with these new changes. Harry began to be friends with people not like us at all, the bad influencers but not that type of bad. Posting every picture with different girls,and what I heard about him from my friends wasn't really anything good so I get the memo that he changed, to the worse. But deep down,I know that the first grade child is still there, but sadly only me who believed that.

I remember after Harry switched schools how I was so sad about it that when I went to school I saw every guy and thought that was him.After grade six I began to hear nothing about Harry and we didn't talk much so my only thing to do was to move on from my 6 year crush and look forward.

After four months of Adams and I relationship, harry shows up uninvited to my life and not knowing that the feelings I had for six years hasn't gone at all. Our moments together like one time we were at our beach house and Harry and his sister were there and we all met up. We were 13 years old and we kept on tanning together and you know what they say "those who tan together, stay together" then we went on riding with beach buggies together and he asked my sister about my number because he was so shy to ask me. I remember how happy I was, and how our sisters kept on sneaking to watch us around.

Or the other time when I was working in a work shop as an intern and then a coincidence that he was working too. Honestly I knew from the beginning that he was working there but I didn't know that he was coming to work again. And so it became our thing to go to work together and cross the streets to go eat. And every summer we began talking to go work together. I was the happiest, until he met up with his new friends. God knows how much I hate them.

Harry doesn't know about my relationship with Adam, at the same time my relationship with adam wasn't steady. It was coming to an end I knew it, long before Harry shows up. Adam and i's conversation began to be bored, that didn't stop Laila from interfering too much into our relationship and I couldn't complain because I know how close she is to Adam and I don't want to be the kind of girlfriends who seems jealous because her boyfriends bestfriend is In too much in our relationship that's for one, and two because of Louis's sake, so I kept my mouth shut. Nathalie knew about Laila and she didn't like it at all she always had a thing for not liking Laila but we both didn't tell anyone about it.

On Monday  night 7:03pm

Harry: hey Lou how are you? I missed you so much.

That all it takes for my heart to shatter down into million pieces. The fact that he used my childhood nickname made me so fucking happy. News about harry has stopped and I knew nothing about him, but after the message it made me feel like we are still children again like old days, how much I miss old days.

From that day I knew that something has to end. My relationship.