My Thoughts

I Dont Care

I don't care. No one does. If someone did they don't show it. I can assure that I kick in the shin and an insult isn't the way someone shows they care about you. Getting snarky for no reason. I'm done. Pretending to care then showing your true colours when I truly need your help. I've never seen a better way to deceive and break someone to pieces. When they need you scream and spit 'your opinion doesn't mean a thing to me' or shout a dirty 'Stop feeling so bad for yourself' when it's the people they encourage to make you feel that way.

Hurting helping people is so much easier than helping hurting people. Hurting the people help is breaking people who are trying to build others barrier. Helping is being the poor fuck who gets to endure the shit while building someone back to what you knew as there healthy self then realising none of it fits. There are pieces here that don't fit. Anxiety? That wasn't what I saw or knew. Makes you wish this person didn't deserve any of it. They weren't healthy anyway. They were falling to pieces as it is but they've got an extra kick in the face to help them crumble.

helping is tough. Especially while your getting smacked and beaten. Being selfless enough to prioritise others while your taking alot of shit at the same time. 'I can't be asked to fucking help people if they aren't willing to try stand up themselves' I know I'll say that but I won't give up if you do because I'm a persistent piece of shit.

You'll never see me really try help you if I make the effort to shout or argue for you. That's what I hate most. If I put you above shouting then you should take your chances with me cause I ain't gonna give up easy.