My Thoughts

Insanity

Insanity - Doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different outcome.

Then why do I do everything so many times and expect something different to happen. What puts this idea of 'insanity' in my head? What makes me thinks all of the dark things that fascinates everyone around me. Why do I argue the same stupid point to the same person that put me in the mess I'm trying to fix. Why do I think she can fix it. And why am I making this worse. Think about this.

If something isn't being observed it is everywhere and no where at the same time. So everything we can't see from the night sky. Most likely doesn't exist right now but exists everywhere too. When your sat there thinking the universe is huge, that you mean nothing in comparison to the universe. Your most likely correct. That is if we find other life. If not you are one of a kind. An incredibly rare piece of treasure that cannot be replaced. Yet others of the same description can make you feel as though your nothing more than a piece of equipment with the only downfall of losing you being your cost.

Imagine your asleep. And your dreaming. The concept of waking up seems like a nightmare. Because some mornings your legs will give way, or your stomach will give in and will start making you feel as though your going to throw up your insides. Your hands are shaking and your not ready but in 10 minutes you've got to leave the house and impress people and show that your okay. Your fine. That moment is horrific. So you wake up prematurely. By 4 hours. And you look around your room. And your not shaking, you don't feel sick. You feel scared. So you pull your covers back over yourself. And You fall back into the abyss.

Imagine you wake up this morning. and you smile. And you get dressed. And you have breakfast. And leave your house for a day. Same smile you woke up with. Not a single problem. Sounds good huh.

I think that idea captures why I'm insane. Why do I keep going to sleep at night and asking up to expect that to happen. Why does she still ask why I'm scared before i sleep. Is she insane too for expecting something different. Maybe shed just scared too. Guess I'll never know. But for now.

Goodnight.