My Thoughts

Stupidity

How many times will I start my thoughts saying I feel lost. Starting to look like someone should do something. How many times should i say i don't know how why i feel like this. How many times do I have to day I don't want to be Me anymore, or that I don't even want to be anyone. I want to be locked in a room and taken from this world entirely. When will my mum stop saying its just because I need more sleep or because I'm not eating properly. Or people stop saying to just stop or that um faking it for attention. Because when that car passes the only thing I can think of is stepping out. And its not great when I've promised to stop thinking like that to the people that matter to me most. I want to be able to talk to people without them ignoring !e and not telling me why. I want to know what i can do to improve Or what to do to make people even want to be around me at all. People say I've changed and I hate who I am now so I guess so. She doesn't care for whoever I am today and neither does anyone else. People don't want to have to listen to me rant. Buy when I talk about them or let them talk, they go. They leave. So what do I do. Tell me. Please. I don't want this anymore.