My Thoughts

I Hope Your Happy

Well I hope your happy. I hope your happy that I tried. I tried to make you happy. I killed someone for you. Are you impressed. I hope you can help me hide from the ones who come searching. I hope now they're gone you can hold the hands that killed them. I had to clean my walls. It took a long while. I hope I can hold you close. I hope you'll love me now I got rid of the ones who scared you from me. You ran to them instead of me. It hurt so much. So I hurt them.

I hope you help the blind boy. The blind boy with no eyes. You know He's come to save you. To save you from your past. He's come to make you special. More special than anyone else. The rag that covers his eyes shows his innocence. His insecurities. When you take him inside to tell him he's wrong in what he thought and you don't love him. Beware of the knife in his pocket. He tends to get rash. He won't be scared to bash and burn. He needs to be hidden from the world. He's far too scared. I hope soon you realise that who he killed was himself.

He killed himself inside to become what you wanted. The blind boy who couldn't see you but called you beautiful. The blind boy who held you close not knowing he's harming himself. The one who wears long sleeves to cover his wounds. To cover his scars. Who doesn't care when you do something wrong because he's ready to forgive you. Who will leave everything to save you. To save you from yourself. So you don't have to change. He'll listen to your stories.  He'll tell you of his stories and that He's got a taste for blood. That you cannot change. No matter how hard you try. He will kill himself for you. Inside and out. He will kill others to make you his. He may be sweet but he gets what he wants. He will do anything for you. Take that how you want. Take him if you want. Know he's here no matter how many times you hurt him. Know he's here for you.

When you sit him down in your living room. Telling him he's wrong and you feel scared that he's with you. You think He's a wanted criminal then he admits he's only commited felony to himself. He changed himself to win you. He lost people around him for you. He's lost the respect of his family. Hes been working everyday to buy you flowers gifts. You tell him that your sorry but you don't feel the same. You tell him not to get angry and the day that covers his eyes begins to soak. He says he respects you and begins to leave. He decides it's not worth it. Putting himself through pain for you. Doing it day after day to get nothing in return. He struggles day after day.

The next day in school you'll see him walk into class. His fave is covered by a mask. The smile is fake you can see but it fools everyone else. The rag is clenched in his hand cold and soaked. You feel guilty. You know he's thinking about you. You know he's feeling lonely and lost. You know wants to hold you in his arms. You know he's ready to give up but he's pushing incase you change your mind. The blind boy has never seen you but knows you back to front. He loves you. He's going to keep delivering chocolates to your door anonymously. He's going to keep changing to please you. He's going to give up eventually.

So when you take him inside to talk.

Think about your answer.