My Thoughts

Have you ever thought

Have you ever thought that you have something no one else has? Probably not. Have you ever thought someone means more to you than your own living being even though if it came to the point of life or death you would give theirs over yours? Probably not. Have you ever thought that you will die, and when you did everyone will carry on with their lives wandering and waiting for someone they enjoy to drop so they may stop wondering collapse to the ground and allow their demons to take control of their ever so fragile minds? Probably. I did.

Have you ever thought that your unacceptable, you will never be the same as them, the person you want to be? Probably not. Have you ever thought of a disgusting animal that will haunt you day after day making you do things you would never ever think of? Probably not. Have you ever thought that maybe you may be that animal tearing at someone's sanity as they crumble to pieces in your vicious claws and your bloodthirsty eyes piercing through their soul with utter anger. Probably not. I have.

A dirty smile would spread across my face as I imagine becoming that animal. Being able to have that power foe once instead of being the victim. Instead of being eaten from the inside out by these little beasts called my thoughts. I don't allow it to. I won't. I will break out of this cage that traps me from the outside world of hopes and dreams and keeps me inside a reminder of my worthless self.

I will escape.
Myself.