All The Hurt Would Go Away

What was lost was not found...

"Hey, it's alright, no need for tears."
I wiped the tears off of my cheeks quickly apologising
"I'm sorry, it's just with everything going on I -"
"- I get it. I know it sounds weird but have you considered looking for anyone else?"
"No shit."
"What?"
"First I need to take my eyes off him."
He rolled his eyes
"TMI Jon, TMI. You know the phrase plenty more fish in the sea?"
"Wow. You're a whizz at this love stuff aren't ya?"
Lin forced a smile as I realised what I had said.
"Oh God I am so sorry Lin, I didn't mean it like -"
"- I know. I'm just gonna, uh, pick up the kids, I'll be at least an hour gotta catch up with my parents you know, call me if something happens okay?"
I nodded and he left the room, shortly after clicking the front door shut behind him. I grabbed my phone and scrolled through the contacts to see who I could talk to, James Cordon, Jasmine CJ, Jimmy Fallon, Lea Michele, Lin, Pippa, Prof. Sexy, what? I looked at the case and it was indeed my phone from the past, I recognised it immediately, Lin must've given me a new phone after I left the hospital. Where was that then? I shrugged to myself pressing call on Prof. Sexy to see who it was, I had a hunch, but wanted to know for sure.
"Hello?"
"Hello."
"Jon? I swear you've got a new phone? I saw it when I visited."
"Yeah, I can't find it but I found this so here I am."
"And on this phone my contact name is Professor Se -"
"- I know what it is I pressed it."
I snapped and he chuckled to himself
"So why did you call?"
"Lin's gone out for an hour and I wanted someone to talk to"
"And out of all the contacts in your phone you -"
"- You were the only one that picked up."
"For an actor you are terrible at lying. Anyone else would've picked up the phone because no one has seen you for ages! There were probably many more imaginative excuses that would be an ounce more believable."
"Fine, I called you first. Happy?"
"Content. And why is that?"
"Because... -"
A long pause stretched between us as I searched for the answer to his question.
"You called me for no reason? I doubt that, maybe you just don't want to tell me huh? Can't be that bad surely. It'll only be between us remember that. Lin will never find out about our little talks."
"I -"
"- come on spit it out."
I was slowly getting more and more flustered, the sound of his voice over the phone made me nervous let alone when he was getting impatient.
"Jon, I haven't got all day!"
"I LOVE YOU OKAY?! I love your voice through the phone and the way you smile and your smirk and you singing and how you taunt and tease people, I love how you are always in control and can establish your territory in a heartbeat. I love the way you look and the way you dress and the way you smile when your happy and I -"
"Slow, down. Jeez I'm blushing. Has Lin set you up to this?"
"Lin's out!"
"Okay okay! I mean, I thought you'd never love me. You shouldn't to be fair, I'm honoured, disturbed but honoured. Have you told Lin?"
"I told him I love you but nothing else."
"Well, I love you too Jon, and I can't wait to meet you again, without Lin stopping us this time."
"S-So what shall we talk about?"
He chuckled at my change of subject
"So, lets go back to how fricking Aphrodite decided that you'd still love me after what I did to you?"
"Well I - well it's like this sort of aura around you. No matter what I'm pulled to you whether it be coincidentally being at the same place at the same time or just me singling you out in a crowded place. My, uh, my body is, well, to put it plainly, attracted, to yours."
"So, I'm a magnet?"
"Kinda."
I remarked, I could imagine him smirking on the other end of the phone.
"And it has nothing to do with the fact you lost your memory because of me?"
"No."
"Or the fact I raped you?"
"No."
"Or Stacy?"
I paused
"She committed suicide? How does that link in?"
He quickly intercepted
"Right sorry, got carried away. So you still love me although I ruined your life."
"Well, the worst parts of my life were healed by the best parts of you."
"Jeez you need to find a better man."
He laughed through the phone
"I-If we were to be a couple. Would Lin approve? I mean, from what I gathered, he hates your guts."
"He should, he remembers it."
"So, would we just end up as Romeo and Juliet?"
"Well neither of them have brain damage for a start and neither of them were technically a victim of a criminal assault from the other and -"
"- you know what I mean."
He sighed
"I dunno Jon, I don't think Lin can ever forgive me. He's a great man and is often very forgiving, but, I think this is one of the cases where that doesn't apply."
"So, even if we love each other we'll never be together?"
"Look at you going all long term on me! I'm honoured! We'll find a way when the time comes okay boo?"
I blushed
"Y-Yeah okay. Lin's coming back now gotta go."
"Okay love you!"
"Love you too."
I ended the call as Lin walked through the door.
"Who were you on the phone to?"
"My mum. Do you know where my other phone is?"
His face temporarily stilled as he realised what I had on the phone I held.
"Did, you call anyone else?"
"No, why?"
"Well, did you look through the contacts I mean."
"Nah I just went to the search bar cause I couldn't be bothered."
He relaxed and smiled in relief
"Cool, I think it's in your coat pocket from yesterday. Yup! Here it is mate."
He handed it over and I gratefully took it and, without him seeing, typed in Andrew's phone number and named the contact 'dad'. Lin knows that I always hated my dad so he would never call him or answer the phone to his calls, so only I could. There was a second reason for the contact name but I won't go into that. The kids immediately started to lay out their separate toys and play with them, it was shocking at how independent they've become now. As I watched them play all I could think of was the last time I was so intrigued in something else. And I still was intrigued to that very same person, I don't think I'll ever be bored of them for as long as I love them. I started to feel my cheeks reddening and quickly left the room to splash some water on my face, what is this man doing to me?