UGH
I WANT TO FOLLOW MORE PPL
AND BE FRIENDS WITH MORE PEOPLE
BUT I AM ANNOYED BY EVERY SINGLE THING
LIKE I AM A TERRIBLE HUMAN BEING WITH VERY FEW FRIENDS
:(
tbh with me being annoyed by like everything kinda sucks
like
I don't read on wattpad
Bc I am annoyed by things
I'm annoyed if the books are better than mine, and then I get discouraged like "I am a shit writer"
if they are the worst books in the world then I don't want to read it bc it sucks
and I like can't talk to people
it doesn't even matter for like follower count or whatever
if like someone with 300- followers seem like they have more confidence than I do or are more bodacious thEN I DONT WANT TO TALK TO THEM BC THEY ARE SO CONFIDENT AND FLAMBOYANT NO THEY MAY RIP ME APART WITH THEIR CONFIDENCE
even if it's like someone who has 1k followers or something, even if they are the nicest person in the world I DONT WANT TO TALK TO THEM BC IM INTIMIDATED BY THEIR FOLLOWER COUNT
I seriously forgot how to make friends on here.
really, can somebody please make a very specific step by step tutorial on how to make friends within this fandom
it would be very helpful.
also, I just want to give a shout out to everyone who does want to be friends with me, because honestly I am the worst person in the world.
and if u do want to be friends with me, well...
let me just say something
there are people who are following me who do want to be friends with me. and I love that, really. but to me, I really can't be friends with anyone.
there's some people who are just like "let's be friends!!!1!!!" and you know I'm sorry I can't, you just seem too perky for me.
I'm not generally a perky person. I hate perky people. I hate people who always want to talk and smile over every little thing, even like the worst things. theyre just so nice and yeah. and theyre like so innocent and shit and just into things I'm not into. IM NOT LIKE THAT! none of my friends irl are like that. none of my internet friends are like that, and I assure u I won't be like that towards you.
I'm not saying it's a bad thing. like Jesus, life must be so easy when you're perky and always look on the bright side of things. and it's just easy to make friends and smile all the time and give hugs to people. I wish I was like that, but I'm not. and I just don't like being with people who are. I am a rain cloud. u are the rainbow. also, when I do talk to perky people and I say something nonperky they're like "oh..." AND I FEEL LIKE I DEPRESSED THEM OR MADE THEM SAD AND IT MAKES ME FEEL BAD LIKE PLEASE IF YOURE A HAPPY PERKY PERSON DONT BE AROUND ME IT WILL ONLY GUARANTEE YOU SADNESS.
also shout out to all the people who are actually my friends
u know who u r
and shout out to all of u
for putting up with me
I'm sorry if I offended any of u
keep on being perky
ur bringing sunshine to the world.
