Thursday, April 30, 2020
(will change format when I have a chance later)
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So this will be short, but I'm kinda in a lower place than usual so of course I'm going to spill my guts out to you!
Also, quick note: recently found out my bi friends from a couple chapters ago is actually gay so just putting that down!
Second note: don't come at me with hate about her "changing her sexuality" because no, it's a process and she figured out she's gay so she's gay.
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Do you ever just, crave human contact?
I don't mean talking or conversation, though that is nice on occasion. I mean touching a fellow human being, whether that be holding their hand or wrapping an arm around their shoulders or hugging them or leaning up against them or tackling them to the ground laughing.
I crave human touch, loving touch.
I crave a human wrapping their arms around me and hugging me with everything they are and me hugging back and feeling loved and wanted. I don't need something romantic, I just need a platonic crushing hug that screams "I love you, I appreciate you, I missed you while we were apart, and I never want to let go".
I want to be held knowing I won't start dislocating again and won't retreat into my mind because I feel nothing, that I will feel emotion behind the hug and be grounded to the here and now.
I want to forget my anxiety long enough for me to lean on a friend and then fall asleep on their shoulder.
I want to be surrounded by people I love and trust and feel comfortable enough to fall asleep next to.
I want to feel loved and wanted and appreciated by people I feel the same for.
I want to f e e l
Stay safe kiddos, message me anytime you want/need to talk to someone.
<sending virtual hugs to everyone>
All my love <3<3<3<3
~Ink
