Monday, June 8, 2020
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Pride Day 8: favorite memory
*starts sobbing*
So um, I have a lot. The time I got an emotional letter from my aro ace friend right before eighth grade graduation, which was the most emotional thing I've ever done because we all go to different high schools and has been hard on the entire friend group. Graduation in general. The party after graduation, where we took off our shoes and danced barefoot on the gym floor with glue sticks poking out of our hair and clothing pockets. DC field trip. Eighth grade picnic, the day after graduation. Newsies. The countless times that lead up to my friend group dragging me into the musical hole I'm never coming out of. The time I came out as ace to my friends. The one time I was able to hang out with my high school friends this year before Covid 19 stopped our plans.
I have a lot of good memories, a lot that compete for the favorite. I can't choose just one, because they're all very important to me! They've all helped me to either a) grow in my identity, b) grow closer with friends, c) experience independence for once, or d) make me realize how much I love and how loved I am in return.
Excuse me for a moment, I'm gonna have an emotional break down and then figure out what the heck to do for the rest of this.
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Right, so um, I had a little emotional break down.
Okay, a normal emotional break down for when I remember memories.
And I'm running out of time, I prefer to have these published before 11pm where I am.
Right so um....
Yeah.
You ever get that feeling where you want to sleep, you know you should sleep, but you have something to do? And really it's not terribly important, but you really want to get it done?
Or how about the feeling of 'I know what I want to do and where this should go, but I lack the will and ability to actually... get there....'?
Or the feeling where you're experiencing multiple emotions at the same time but have no idea which one to focus on so you just turn up the volume on your music to try to drown it out?
Sorry for such a short chapter, I'm tired and haven't updated any books but this for months.
Stay safe kiddos and make sure to get at least five hours of sleep!!
Love you <3<3<3
~Ink
