Monday, May 18, 2020
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Thank you to @THE_Marauder__ for the inspiration for this after your post (you know which one).
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As y'all know, having probably read all of the chapters, I have a bit of a self-loathing thing going on. So here's something to try and promote a little more self-love.
Ink
I- idiotic
N- needy
K- killjoy
Or,
I- incredible
N- necessary
K- kind
It's all about how you frame it.
The parts of you that seem bad and disgusting and unlovable are seen by others as good and beautiful and what makes them love you (platonic or otherwise).
So I'm a short kiddo, just 5'0.
And I hate it, a lot. Mostly because literally everyone else is taller than me. But you know what? That makes it easier for me to go places with lower ceilings or duck under branches. I can fit into smaller spaces. And I take up less space which is always nice. And it'll be harder to shoot me in the head while in a car.
I'm what I guess you could call a little bit thicc and a bit curvy.
This makes me quite a bit self conscious! I mean, girls are always encouraged (read: pressured) to be thin, and I don't exactly fit that bill. But you know what? I like my thicc thighs that are soft and squishy. I like my tummy with it's softness and ripples of flesh. I like my poofy checks that never lost their baby fat and make me look younger than I am. I like how I'm not really bone-y anywhere on my body except my thin as heck wrists and maybe the backs of my feet where my foot meets my legs, plus that weird bone on the ankle that sticks out a little bit. I'm soft and squishy and perfect for hugs and cuddles.
I'm a teen, I have acne.
It sucks, I hate my face most of the time. My forehead is always greasy and I always have red dots on my face and dried blood where I picked at something. But you know what? That's normal. That's completely normal for someone my age. Heck, even adults get acne! It's normal and done to have, screw beauty norms because this is how I really am and if that's not socially acceptable then society needs to rethink it's norms.
NEWSFLASH: I HAVE HAIR ON MY ARMS AND LEGS AND ARMPITS.
Yeah, unbelievable right? How dare my body create a layer of hair on my skin to keep me warm like it's supposed to! For me personally it grows pretty quickly so I shave a lot because it makes me uncomfortable. And you know what? Yeah, I have hair on parts of me other than on my head. And what's wrong with that? Why have I been conditioned to think that the soft fuzz on my arm is bad to have for a woman? I still shave it, but I grow out a bit first, to the point that there's actually a centimeter of length to it. Why? Because it's soft and honestly it's too much to constantly have to shave.
So you know what? You're beautiful, no matter what.
You know why?
Because you're you. You're you as your body is meant to be and that's perfectly fine.
You're you as you are, and that in itself is priceless because too many of us try to change to conform when we're perfect in our own ways with our interests and passions and loves.
You don't have to love yourself right away, but please acknowledge that you have good qualities and try to identify the flip side of your hatred/loathing.
Stay safe kiddos and start having the piece of cake, you deserve it.
Love you all <3<3<3<3
~Ink
