Monday, July 6, 2020
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Why am I so scared of coming out?
I'm only a pan romantic asexual questioning her gender (could you guys, gals, and non binary pals use she/her and they/them pronouns for me please?), that's not too complicated.....
I mean, PowerPoint slides right?
I can see it now.
Asexuality: what it is
Asexuality is where someone is either not interested or has no desire for sex. It's an umbrella term for the a or ace spectrum.
Some aces are sex repulsed, and some are very sexually activate. It all depends on the ace.
Asexuality and what it is to me
I identify as a neutrally orientated ace. I'm not repulsed by sex, but I have no desire for it. This doesn't mean I'm opposed to dating, but I'm not comfortable with sexual touches, including kissing.
Romantic attraction
You can have sexual attraction and/or romantic attraction. You can have one without the other, or both. Most experience both at the same time, but it's different for each person. Romantic attraction just means that someone is attracted to someone else in an emotionally intimacy and dating way, not sexual.
Pan sexuality
When someone is attracted to who the person is and doesn't care about what gender they are. To put it simply, they're open to all genders because gender isn't a factor when finding a partner.
Put it Together!
Pan (any gender because it doesn't matter) romantic (emotional intimacy, not sexual) asexual (not interested in sex)
And that's who I am!
^^^ boom, how I come out to my parents. PowerPoint. Because they're engineers, it'll make the most sense to them if I do it like that.
*sigh* why did I have to get saddled with the complicated sexuality? Gay is easy, you like your same gender. Bi is understandable, you like two genders. Pan still makes sense because it's just any gender. But noooooooo, pan romantic ace, because that's sooooo easy to understand and then accept in a society based around having sex/kids. I'm a girl in a Christian family, it's like contradicting everything I've been raised to be.
Wait.
That's a good thing.
......
That moment when your sexuality took one look at your upbringing and goes "ha let's do the opposite okay? Lol this is gonna be so much fun!"
I need more sleep.
Stay safe kiddos, make sure to hydrate so you don't die-drate!
Love you <3<3<3
~Ink
