Hardships

Can We Talk?

Adora's POV:

I run after Catra, before a hand on my wrist made me stop. I look over my shoulder to see Shadow Weaver shaking her head. I growl and turn to face her. "Adora, you are being distracted. We have more important things to do to worry over something so childish", Shadow Weaver says sternly. I scoff and say lowly, "Listen to me", I pause and press my finger to her chest and say lowly and sternly so she could understand the meaning in each word, "You're the reason she got so 'childish'. You don't understand what you've done to her have you? The shit you put us through. Put HER through. Although I have put all your sins to the side to let you help us doesnt mean I like nor trust you. I haven't forgotten what you've done and you're worse than Catra has ever been and YOU know that. We let you roam around free because Glimmer is the Queen, she is in charge aswell as the Princess Alliance. But even if we don't exactly like the decision, we trust her judgement. WE DO NOT TRUST YOU. Got it? So stop being so cocky and understand that you do one thing and you're going to be banished aswell. But unlike Catra's banishment, you'll be banished permanently alright?".

I looked at how taken back Shadow Weaver was and pried her hand off my wrist and say a bit louder so everyone could hear, "Do not forget your place here". Before turning around and continuing my stride towards Catra's tent.  I opened the flap to be met with an angry Melog.

I put my hands up and say softly, "Hey, Hey its just me Melog". Melog sits down, tail wrapped around his feet as his mane goes back to its normal blue and his eyes aswell. I smile and step forward, petting his head making him purr and nudge my hand up and nestling his head inbetween my arms and purring happily. I chuckle and say, "Hey buddy, thanks for watching over her".  Melog licks my face and hops off the bed and walks over to the front of the tent and laying down.

I sit down next to Catra, her back was turnt to me and I sighed. "Can we talk?", I ask softly putting a hand on her shoulder, feeling her muscles tense up. Catra sighs and says, "What do you want Adora?". I let my hand drop from her shoulder to her hand and squeezed gently before saying, "Im sorry I didnt tell you that we were working for Shadow Weaver. I shouldve told you off the bat. I knew how it would go down. A-And I know you probably hate me because we are trusting Shadow Weaver. And trust me I'd understand why, because I honestly didnt agree with the idea neither did half of the princesses. We only let her stay because she was training Glimmer. Then I guess she got comfortable with it.. and I-", I was surprised when she stood up and said, "I dont hate you Adora. Nor do I hate any of the other princesses. I just hate the fact that no matter how hard I try to prove to them that Im not bad they only look at me and see the monster that I am. I want to change I really do but how am I supposed to get them to trust me when all they see is the same shit that haunts me?". I noticed the crack in her voice at her last words and stood up, walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her neck waiting for her to push me away but I was surprised yet again when she held on to me like I was her life line.

I felt her shoulders start shaking and I closed my eyes and started rubbing the back of her head, trying to sooth her. "Its ok to cry Catra", I say in a comforting tone and I heard her sniffles and she only held on to me tighter and sobbed quietly in my chest. I rubbed circles on her back and whispered soft words into her ears before she calmed down.

I felt my heart break at how little she looked, the way her hair fell in her face and covered her puffy different colored eyes, and how broken she looked. "I-I hate feeling like this Adora. I want to be good but Im never given the chance. B-But they let her in, and let her have a chance to change. How is that f-fair?", Catra asks, her voice wavering. I hold on to her tighter and say, "I know Catra. And Im sorry you feel this way. I know you're a good person. And it kills me that they're not giving you a chance to express that. But just know that Bow, Glimmer, Melog, and I have your back if anything happens ok?". Catra chuckles and I smiled knowing that I made her laugh.