Hardships

After

*Warning ‼️: Contains sensitive topics. Talk of rape is included, I strongly suggest that if this topic is triggering towards you to not read this chapter. I do not want to make my readers relive through their trauma, so Im giving you this warning if the this topic is triggering towards you please do not read. Thank you. I appreciate all of you. And if you do read this chapter, please read what I have to say at the end. Thank you all again, and enjoy the chapter*

Adora wakes up covered in blankets and in a cold bed. She sits up, confused, rubbing her eyes and yawning before an ache inbetween her legs reminded her of the events of last night. Adora looks around the room before her eyes come in contact with a familiar figure bended over the railing of the balcony in their room.

"Catra?", Adora calls out to the figure confirming that it was indeed her feline lover when she heard her voice. "H-Hey baby, how'd you sleep?". Catra says hoarsely not turning around still. Adora raises a brow when she heard the sadness in her girlfriend's tone.

Adora attempts to stand up on wobbly legs only to fall back on the bed. Adora huffs and tries again, this time succeeding and walking over to her girlfriend like a penguin. "Baby whats wrong? Why are you sad?". Adora puts a hand on Catra's shoulder her eyes widening when the feline tensed under her hand.

"Babe?"

"A-Adora I think... I did something very bad"

Adora grew worried and she stepped closer to Catra only for her to slide away from her like if it burned her for Adora to be close to her.

"Baby... whats going on?".

"I-I remember Glimmer saying t-that if somebody y-you know cum in a lady w-without her saying its fine then i-its considered rape and I-"

Catra brought her hand to her mouth and released muffled sobs into it. Adora's eyes softened and she walked over and wrapped her arms around Catra's back, hugging her tightly and saying, "Baby, when I said you can cum I consented to that too, please my love dont cry".

Catra shook her head and shook Adora's arms off of her body and started pacing, her head in her hands as she spiraled into a trance self-hatred and guilt.

"No! What I did w-was still wrong! Y-You may of consented to the sex but I-I didnt ask if it was ok for me to do that. I-I did something very wrong. So so fucking wrong. G-God! I-I raped you! I-Im a terrible person. S-So fucking terrible. I-I dont deserve you. N-No! God! W-What was I thinking?! I-I was so caught up i-in my own fucking h-head and ecstasy t-that I didnt even have the a-audacity to ask if its ok! I-Im terrible! H-Horrible! Selfish! H-How could I be so fucking disrespectful and d-disgusting?! God Im so so so sorry Adora! So fu-fucking sorry!".

Adora stepped forward ignoring the sharp pain between her legs and stopped Catra's pacing. Adora put her hands on Catra's shoulder and said sternly, "Catra. Stop it. You're not a terrible person". Catra didn't dare to look into Adora's eyes fearing that if she did she would only see pure hatred and disgust in her favorite cerulean orbs. It broke Adora's heart that Catra felt so much guilt.

"Baby, Catra please look at me", Adora whispers softly looking at the upset feline. Catra didnt budge and Adora lifted her chin up so that Catra was forced to look her in the eyes. "Catra, darling please dont beat yourself up about it. Ok? You didnt rape me. I consented to it. To all of it. Dont worry about releasing yourself in me , Im fine with it". Catra shakes her head and tries to move her face away from Adora but Adora didnt let her look away.

"Thats not the p-point Adora! I took y-your virginity a, a-and then I did that too! Of course Im a terrible person. I-I couldve impregnated you! And even if you consented I still didnt ask! How can you even look at me? A-And not hate me?!". Catra cries out, hot tears of self-loathe and anger and frustration rolling down her cheek. Adora brings Catra into a hug, Catra's head nestled against her chest as the feline sobbed silently into her lover's embrace.