Hardships

In This Together

Adora's POV:

I woke up against Catra's chest, my head tucked under her chin as her minty breath hit my head as she snored peacefully. It was around 2 in the afternoon or so but I had requested that they didnt disturb us until tomorrow. I smiled, looking up at her before the words that Doctor Ryker told us yesterday ran through my head: ' Catra suffered a panic attack. This could be due to the phantom pain that she was going through but also due to the events that happened before that caused her to be in this condition.  Panic attacks typically begin suddenly, without warning. They can strike at any time. Panic attacks may come on suddenly and without warning at first, but over time, they're usually triggered by certain situations. Some research suggests that your body's natural fight-or-flight response to danger is involved in panic attacks. For example, if a bear came after you, your body would react instinctively. Your heart rate and breathing would speed up as your body prepared for a life-threatening situation. Many of the same reactions occur in a panic attack. But it's unknown why a panic attack occurs when there's no obvious danger present. If she has another one, some things you can do is to help her maintain a steady breathing pace. Have her close her eyes and focus on her breathing'.

I felt Catra tense under me and I looked up at her and saw her face scrunch up, almost in pain before she jolted awake and held her nub. My eyes widened as she took a shark intake of breath and clutched the nub that was left of her missing limb. "Hey.. Hey. Its ok.. its ok baby", I coo wrapping my arm around her back and replaced her hand with my own. Catra hissed in pain and I flinched hating the fact that I couldve caused her pain.

"Im sorry! W-What do I do?", I ask shakily looking into pained eyes. Catra groaned and said hoarsely, " I-Its ok, a-and just massage the spot..please". I nod and start rubbing and kneading the spot gently. Catra let out a shaky sigh before she said softly, "Thank you baby". I smiled and leaned up against her body, being careful not to put all my weight against her but enough to press a kiss to her lips.

Catra hummed and pulled back, looking me in the eyes. I noticed something in my favorite pair of eyes that I hadnt seen in a long time. Guilt. Sadness. What happened? What was she dreaming about? Or thought about?. I take her left hand and asked, "Whats wrong baby? Whats on your mind?". Catra sighs and grabbed the back of my head gently and laid it on her chest as she whispered against my head, "I dont want to burden you with this baby. N-Not after all of what has happened".

I knit my brows together and moved back a bit to look at her. I watched her head droop sadly before  I lifted her chin up with my finger and said, "Whatever you're goin through baby.. we're in it together. Your tears are my tears. Your laughs are my laughs. Your smiles are my smiles. Ok? Please dont shut me out. P-Please Catra". Catra sighed, closing her eyes before she pulled me into her body her chin landing on my shoulder as she gripped the back of my shirt with her left hand as her nub rested against my side.

"I-I saw him...", Catra said in a small voice that I wouldnt have heard if we werent so close. I quirk a brow and pull back gently, and asked "who..? Kade". Catra nodded, her eyes becoming watery but I saw the inner turmoil. I sigh and lean forward, pressing a kiss to the middle of her forehead before grabbing the back of her neck and holding her tightly.

"Its ok to cry Catra, its ok. Let it out", I whispered against her ear. I closed my eyes and rubbed the back of her head gently as she dug her head into my collarbone and gripped onto my shoulder as she wept softly. Her tears soaked my shirt. "I-I should hate him ... I sh-should but I just cant. I-I cant bring myself t-to hate him. A-And thats terrible be-because he h-hurt me so much. H-He hurt you. Bow. A-And so many others I care ab-about but I still c-cant stop seeing him A-Adora I close my eyes and I-..." Catra took a shaky breathe and pulled back, gripping the fabric that covered her chest and cried out , " I cant stop seeing his blood on my hands... his lifeless eyes looking up at me! T-The smile on his face as he wh-whispered his regrets to me... h-his last words".