Tell Me You Love Me

Chapter 40

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I never really showed interest in cooking but now I'm taking Culinary arts. I didn't really know at first what I wanted to do for the last 4 years of my life in a university so I decided to just show my passion in cooking.

I'm not a great cook and I'm still learning. Bata palang kase ako wala na nagturo sakin paano mag luto. I don't even know how to fry a chicken. That's embarrassing because my classmates already has basic knowledge about this course.

Pero pinasok ko naman to hindi dahil pro na ako. Nandito ako para matuto. Naisip ko kase na I want my future husband to atleast rest dahil sure naman ako na sya ang magta-trabaho para sa family and I'll be the cook in our house.

Of course hindi ako papayag na walang ginagawa at hindi nakakatulong financially. Kaya naman ngayon palang nag-iipon na ako for my future business. Gusto kong magtayo ng restaurant.

Natapos ang pag-iisip ko sa lahat nung biglang nag ring yung phone ko. I wasn't actually expecting to get a call from anyone kaya nagtaka din ako Sinong tumatawag.

When I saw the callers ID, I laughed because I actually miss this girl.

[Hello who's this?] Pagkukunwari ko na hindi ko sinave ang numero nya. Ini-imagine ko palang ang reaksyon nya ay natatawa na ako.

[Anong who's this? Gusto mo bang kaltukan kita? Alam mo bang ang mahal pala tumawag pag international?!] halos mabingi ako sa pagsisigaw nya. Ang hirap nga naman makipag talo sa teacher oh.

Yes, she took Education. Major nya ang math. I don't even know how she can handle all the formulas. This girl is really something. Yung utak nya kala mo talaga utak ni Einstein eh.

[I know, I know] I paused for a while to laughed. I heard her gasped and growled in annoyance.

[Ikaw babae ka pinagti-tripan mo nanaman ako!] that made me laugh even more. She's too cute to handle. I hope that her relationship with my brother is going well.

[Kalma babaeng buntis. Hindi porket graduate kana at teacher kana ay sisigawan mo na ako ah! Tandaan mo nauna kalang ng Ilang buwan saken. Ga-graduate na ako next month baklaaa!] Masaya kong binalita sakanya

Late kase talaga ang start ng school year nila dito. Nung first year ko ay hindi talaga ako sanay at late pa ako nung first day ko. Hindi naman Mahirap makipag communicate dahil marunong naman akong mag English.

[Ang chef ko! At for the record ah! Hindi ako buntis baka sipain kita] Nagtawanan lang kami.

Ibinaba ko na ang tawag dahil tinatawag na ako ng boss ko. I'm still a working student Kahit dito. Ayokong humingi ng humingi ng allowance sa Kuya ko. He will be handling our company in Manila pag uwi namin.

We are planning to go back to the Philippines after my graduation.

Kuya Clave is now an Engineer kaya hindi sya ang mag h-handle ng company. Tinuloy nya yung matagal na nyang pangarap and I'm actually proud of him. He chose to continue his studies in the Philippines because he can't leave mom and dad.

5 years na rin kaming nandito sa Singapore. Our life here is not extravagant. We earned our own money. Hindi naman kami hingi ng hingi lang kayla mommy. We also wanted to earn our own and live a life just like the others.

Me and Kuya also got closer.

Pagod na pagod akong umuwi sa bahay at nagpalit kaagad. Hindi naman ganon ka init dito gaya sa pinas kaya hindi din naman ako ganon pagpawisan. Sobrang linis dito actually Kaya nakakahiya na makitang ang kalat ng kwarto ko.

The people here are really responsible.

I sighed and laid down to my bed. Bigla pumasok sa isip ko si Adrian. How is he? I'm thinking that he probably took film making or maybe a writer. That's his passion. But who knows?

Isang buntong hininga ulit ang pinakawalan ko dahil sa isip na yon. I shouldn't think about him anymore. He probably has his own kids by now. Bakit ko ba kasi naiisip to?

I wish I can un love him.

C'mon self! It's been five years! Five whole years, yet you're still there, stuck in the same room. You still love him.

Napagpasyahan kong maligo nalang. Next month will be my graduation day then our flight back to Philippines. I made a lot of memories here and I wanna make brand new memories back in the Philippines.

Siguro ay na mi-miss ko lang ang pilipinas kaya nagkakaganito ako. Sa loob kase ng limang taon ay tatlong beses lang kami nag bakasyon doon ni Kuya.

And next month, uuwi na talaga kami. Duon ko itatayo ang restaurant na matagal kong pinagiipunan

Hindi naman kasi talaga madaling mag move on? Sino bang nagsabing madaling mag move on? Argh I hate this!

Kinabukasan ay muntikan pa akong ma late. Graduating na ako kaya hindi na ako pwedeng pumalpak.

Weeks passed by quickly and I didn't even realize that tomorrow is already my graduation day. Pagkatapos na Pagkatapos ng graduation ko ay uuwi na talaga kami agad. Baka makarating kami sa pinas ay alas dos na ng madaling araw.

Umupo ako sa kama ko at kinuha ang laptop ko. Ilang years ko kading hindi binubuksan ang ig ko dahil yon lang ang tanging account ko na friends kami ni Adrian. I opened it and I was shock to see a lot of notifications. Yung iba ay five years ago pa.

Others messaged me saying that I should go back to Adrian blah blah blah. Yung iba naman ay sinasabing hindi naman daw talaga ako nararapat para sakanya.

I searched for Adrians name and saw his profile. His last post is on April 20 xxxx that's... my birthday.

He posted a photo of a sunflower. He knows that it's my favorite kind of flower. Tinignan ko din ang iba nyang post at hindi nya pa dine-delete ang iba gaya nung picture ko na natutulog sa balikat nya with the caption "I love to staring at your beautiful face"

I sighed and closed my socials. Bakit hindi nya pa dine-delete ang mga yon?

I shouldn't make that a big deal. Baka nakalimutan nyalang yung password kaya hindi na nya ma delete dahil hindi na sya maka log in. Madaming pwedeng dahilan kaya wag kang mag assume Iana okay?

Feeling ko ay dahil wala na akong masyadong makakausap ay nababaliw na ako. Buti nalang talaga ay uuwi na kami bukas.

Huling buntong hininga bago umuwi bukas.

I just really hope that our paths won't cross because of that happens, I'm doomed

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