The Other Side of Dominance (BxB) ✔

Chapter 56 [Attack]

I don't chase people anymore. I learned that I'm here and I'm important. I'm not going to run after people just to prove that I matter. If they like spending time with me, they will do so. If not, I'm content with my own company.

At this point of my life, I can't entirely say that I'm happy. But I'm not sad either. I don't know, maybe in the middle? But it's okay not to label the emotion I'm feeling. It is okay to feel nothing at all. It's not where I want but it's better than where I was.

"Aren't you hungry? Ang unti lang nang kinuha mo.." Carson's voice was so small that I can call it almost a whisper. But the way he spoke was full of sincerity.

Bumaba ang tingin ko sa aking pinggan. Just like what he noticed, kakaunti lang ang kinuha kong pagkain. I was actually feeling the hunger moments ago but it is a wonder to me now how I eventually lost the appetite.

"I'm on a diet." I murmured unwittingly playing with the fork in my hand. That was a silly alibi but I did not expect Carson to believe it.

"Really? Slim ka naman, I don't think you should lose more weight." he bit the bottom part of his lip for a single moment while scanning my figure, and then lifted his eyes on me. "Your physique is just fine with me. Just the way I like it..." he added with more emphasis this time.

Kung nakikita ko lang ang mukha ko ngayon sa salamin, paniguradong pulang-pula na ako dahil sa mga salitang nanggagaling sa kanya. So far, that was the sweetest thing I have heard from anyone. It wasn't a compliment, it was acceptance. Not that I was asking for it, but for him to say it in the most unexpected time gave me warm and fuzzy feelings.

Bigla tuloy akong nagsisi na iyon pa ang ginamit kong alibi dahil hindi naman iyon totoo. Baka isipin niyang masyado akong conscious sa aking anyo.

"Alright. I'll get more food then.." wika ko at akmang tatayo upang dagdagan ang laman ng aking plato ngunit inunahan niya ako. Nagtama pa ang aming mga kamay nang hawakan niya ang aking pinggan.

"Stay here. Let me get it for you." utos niya hanggang sa mawalan ako ng pagkakataong tumanggi dahil naagaw na niya ang aking pinggan. He even winked at me before leaving me at the table and all I could do was roll my eyes while trying my best to hide my smile.

Who wouldn't fall for someone like him? He's perfect and I'm flawed. I don't know how it's gonna work and I'm still trying to figure out if I can equate his feelings for me. Sinusukat ko rin ang aking sariling kapasidad kung kaya ko na nga ba ulit magmahal. Because it would be unfair to him if he feels that I'm taking him for granted, right?

Naghihintay akong makabalik siya nang sabay-sabay nagsilingunan ang mga tao sa pagbukas ng pintuan at pagpasok ng dalawang panauhin. I don't understand why it has to be flashy but the way Danica Graciano walks the ground with elegance attracted a lot of attention. Walking behind her is the governor's personal driver, Boris.

What in the damn world are they doing here?!

Danica went straight to where Blade and Ate Catalina's table was and the two women immediately hugged each other like it is the first time they have been together after a very long time. Kahit nanonood lang ako sa kanila ay naramdaman ko ang pamimilipit ng aking tiyan. Seeing all the people who lied to me made me feel sick and annoyed. And they all looked so happy with their lives. I just don't understand how people are okay with themselves knowing they emotionally destroyed someone.

I bit my lip to conceal the discomfort I was feeling.

That unpleasant view was blocked by Carson's figure when he finally got back to our table with the plate in his hands. There was a trace of smile on his lips but after seeing the unreadable expression on my face, he extended his hands and gently touched my face.