The Other Side of Dominance (BxB) ✔

Chapter 9 [Strings]

Even though I already have his golden number, hindi ko rin magawang tumawag o kahit magsend man lang ng text message sa kanya. On the deep side of my mind, pakiramdam ko ang easy-to-get ko kung gagawin ko 'yun, pero kailan rin ba ako naging hard-to-get?

I couldn't help but think it through.

Mula nang lumawig ang pag-iibigan namin ni Blade, naging madalas na ang pagtatalo ng aking puso at utak. My brain says to be more logical, but then my heart would say suck him or jerk him off or whatever to please him.

Logical my ass.

In trying times like this, I keep on recalling my principles. Ang tanging prinsipyo ko lang naman ay lumandi. I don't care much if people would judge me or my actions, buhay ko naman 'to kaya anong care ko sa sasabihin ng iba?

Rather be the hunter than the prey.

I know I have enough confidence on the things I could offer and it's my right to do the things I want. Despite it, alam ko rin naman ang mga limitasyon ko pero hangga't kaya gora lang!

"E kasi naman masyado kang pamigay, girl. Try mo ring magpakipot paminsan-minsan.." pagpapayo ni Parker sa umiiyak na si Savannah.

Imbes na sa mukha ni Sav ako mag-focus, bumababa ang tingin ko sa boobs niyang malapit nang lumuwa sa kanyang uniform. Simula nang mag-transition siya ay nagkaroon siya ng malaking hinaharap. Though I think and feel like a woman, hindi ko kailanman naisip ang tumulad sa kanya.

I'm comfortable with a man's body, and I don't have anything against trans like her about restructuring their bodies, masaya rin ako kung saan sila masaya.

"But h-he told me... he will love me r-regardless of..." inabot ko ang tissue kay Sav upang mapunasan ang kanyang mga luha.

We're currently having our lunch at the school's cafeteria, pero itong si Sav ay halos hindi na nagalaw ang kanyang pagkain dahil sa pagluluksa sa kanilang fresh break up ng kanyang naging boyfriend.

"We can't blame you, Sav. But if this is the case, then we can't really change anything about it since hindi naman pala niya prefer ang gaya mo." pag-aalu ni Parker. Gusto ko mang asarin ang pagiging seryoso ni Parker ngayon ay ipinagpaliban ko nalang.

Tinignan ko si Diego na tahimik lang na kumakain, pasulyap-sulyap sa dalawa.

"Ang s-sakit lang kasi..." Sav's eyes pooled again with tears.

"You don't deserve guys like him. And being trans doesn't make you less worthy of love and respect, Savannah." Diego caught my whole attention when those words came out of his mouth.

"Tama si Diego, Sav. Tsaka ang ganda mo kaya, marami pang magkakagusto sa'yo riyan at 'yong mas deserve mo." Parker agreed and helped Savannah dry her tears.

Hindi ako masyadong maalam sa pinagdadaanan nitong si Sav since mas open siya kina Parker at Diego, being their teacher somewhat creates a middle line between what they tell me and what I know about them.

But fuck the line. I'm still their friend and I should be more invested to know their struggles.

"You're beautiful, Sav. Don't cry over guys like him, he doesn't deserve your tears." dagdag ko ngayong mas tumahan na siya. As far as I remember, earlier they were talking about her boyfriend and how he dumped her just because of her... sexuality.

Though gays, lesbians, and bisexuals all have our fair share of discrimination, I believe trans people like her face more complications in their lives. From the transition, getting health care, bathroom issues, and with the people asking if they've had body parts removed or restructured, those aren't easy to deal with in almost every day.