The Other Side of Dominance (BxB) ✔

Chapter 40 [Reason]

Maybe right now we think we still have a lot of time in our hands, but we're not going to be here forever, and the truth is... we'll never know when our journey here on earth will come to an end. So we have to live life with no regrets and stop waiting for the right time to make a move, to say what we want, and to do what our heart is telling us to do.

No matter how many problems I have, I don't want to worry. Worrying is a waste of time. It doesn't change anything. It just messes with my mind and steals my happiness.

"How are you feeling?" nakausli ang ulo ni Kuya Evan sa nakaawang na pintuan ng aking kwarto, sinira ang pagmo-moment ko.

I was just sitting down on the edge of the bed while contemplating on the words I will use to profess my sickness to my boyfriend. I wish I could just tell him — 'Blade, I'm pregnant' because that would be a hell lot easier.

"I'm fine, Kuya. Stop worrying so much about me." I said just to stop him from overthinking. Mas stressed pa yata sila kaysa sakin, eh.

He opened the door wider and let himself in. Tinabihan niya ako sa pagkakaupo sa kama at dahil masyado siyang malaki at mabigat, lumundo ang kama kaya halos umuga ako sa impact ng pag-upo niya.

"You can't fool me. I know what's going on inside that head of yours." lapastangan niya pang dinuro ang aking ulo at pinaningkitan ako ng mga mata. Kuya Evan is the closest resemblance to Dad's face kaya minsan naaalala ko si Daddy sa kanya.

Well, I can't really deny that he's good at interpreting my expressions even though myself couldn't tell. And whenever I feel anxious, he would feel that.

"S-Should I leave?" hindi ko magawang tumingin sa kanya nang itanong iyon kaya nanatili sa aking mga daliri ang paningin ko.

If they think that leaving is the best option, I'm going to consider it. There's just one reason that holds me back and thinking of him makes me want to stay because that's what makes me happy. But at the same time, setting aside the option to get the best treatment seems selfish. So I was tied between choosing to be selfishly happy and miserably healthy.

"Don't make me decide for you." panangga niya, ayaw akong bigyan ng konkretong sagot.

"I was just asking your opinion. O kung ikaw ang nasa posisyon ko, anong gagawin mo?" I tried to make it sound easier to comprehend so I can get his idea.

"If I were in your position, of course I won't leave. I have a loving wife and kids." nagmistulang musika sa pandinig ko ang narinig na sagot mula sa kanya.

"Exactly!" pagsang-ayon ko nang may mapagtanto sa aking sarili.

"What do you mean exactly?" he creased his brows at me.

"If you were in my position, you will stay because you have people you don't wanna leave here." I muttered, paraphrasing what he just said but I never saw any hint of expression on his face that tells me he understands me.

"Don't compare my decision to yours because clearly we have different situation. I have a family." madiin niyang pahayag na parang hindi ko alam kung ano ang ibig sabihin no'n.

"And I have a boyfriend so it's pretty much the sa—" my mouth fell open as realization hits me. I wanted to curse my tongue so bad for talking nonstop.

The reaction on his face was priceless. "A boyfriend?" he asked with all the sarcasm in the world.

"W-Well, it's not like you didn't know about my relationship with the mayor?" kinakabahan kong tanong. Kinalaunan ay napagtanto kong hindi naman ako gaanong mahihirapang magpaliwanag sa kanya dahil may ideya naman siya patungkol dito.