The Other Side of Dominance (BxB) ✔

Chapter 61 [History]

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I slapped him hard after.

Halos bumakat ang kamay ko nang dumapo ang palad ko sa kanyang mukha. How dare he play with my feelings and take advantage of me thinking that he was close to dying?!

"H-Harper.." bumangon siya mula sa pagkakahiga at balak na hawakan ako ngunit itinaboy ko ang kanyang braso. I buried my face on my palms, trying to control my growing anger.

This has happened years ago, it was the beginning when I desperately tried to chase him. And now, he played the same stupid act on me. I didn't have any goddamn idea that I was falling into his trick. So what does this mean? And why did he kiss me?!

I stood up and left him there. I ran to get away from him. Nakalabas ako ng bahay mula sa lagusan ng hardin at doon ay nanuot ang lamig ng gabi gawa ng tubig sa aking balat. Tagaktak pa rin ang tubig mula sa dulo ng aking buhok ngunit hindi ko na inalintana iyon dahil mas nanaig ang galit ko kay Blade.

Sa sobrang galit ko ay hindi ko na namalayan ang pagbagsak ng aking mga luha. I hate the moment when suddenly my anger turns into tears. I'm not crying because I still love him. And I'm not crying because he fooled me. I'm crying because this just complicates things again. I thought we already had an agreement. But him pulling this trick and kissing me, that will only ruin the understanding that we had.

"Harper, hey... why are you..." I turned my back on him when I heard his voice.

Nakasunod pala siya. Mabilis kong pinawi ang mga luha sa aking pisngi at umaktong hindi ako apektado. I crossed my arms to help me contain the disturbed feelings I have right at this moment.

"Are you mad that I... kissed you?" his hoarse voice is convincing. If I could just hurt this man physically, I would gladly do it.

"You're asking if I am mad? You're really asking me if I'm mad you motherfucking asshole?!" I bravely faced him and threw a punch on his chest. Nang hindi makuntento ay paulit-ulit ko siyang sinaktan. Pinagsusuntok ko ang kanyang dibdib ngunit nakapagtatakang hindi siya umapela at hinayaan lamang akong gawin iyon sa kanya.

Nang mapagod ay muli akong naluha. We're still both dripping with water but we didn't mind it. Bumabakat na ang kanyang katawan dahil sa basang kasuotan ngunit kahit na ganoon ay mas importante ang galit ko kaysa pansinin ang mga bagay na iyon.

My knuckles are close to getting red when I stopped from hitting him.

"If you're expecting for an apology. I'm sorry but I can't give you that. I missed kissing you and I would do it all over again if I get the chance.." mula sa lupa ay umakyat ang tingin ko sa kanyang mapupungay na mga mata. I don't know if there's still an alcohol in his system that's why he cay say these things to me but... "I burn for you, Harper. And that has never really changed.."

I was staring right directly in his eyes, assessing if he's telling the truth or if it's just another bullshit. But I know and this time, I can feel that his words are sincere and honest. Well since the moment we talked to each other again after years of being apart, he's been true to his words.

"We both know we can't go back to the way we were, Blade." I started, wanting to explain to him that the 'baby boy and daddy' tandem can't and won't happen again.

I used to be the person that no matter how bad you hurt me, I'd always still be there for you. But I realized that shit had to stop, cause that's how you allow people to take advantage of you and allow them to continuously step over you. I'm not that person no more, never again.

"Yes, we ca-"

"No, we don't. I'm sorry Blade but that's how it really is. And I have someone else in my life now. I want to start anew but you're always making it hard for me, for the both of us." Paliwanag ko sa kanya sa mas mahinahong boses. I realized anger won't do the situation any better, we're just gonna hurt each other again if I let myself be consumed with anger.